i was slicing up an avocado
when you came up behind me
with your quiet brand new sneakers
your reflection i did not see
it was the hottest day in august
and we were heading for the sea
for a second my mind started drifting
you put your arms around me
you put your arms around me
you put your arms around
Blood sprayed on the kitchen sink
whats this? i had time to think
i see the tip of my index finger
my mind is slowly creating a link
from your mouth speaks your lovely voice
the best comments ive ever heard
oh honey you've cut off your finger
i bet thats gotta hurt
you put your arms me
you put your arms me
you put your arms around
I must've passed out on the porch
I'd never seen so many bright stars
when i wake up im in the waiting room
of the local e.r.
my hand is wrapped in toilet paper
and my shirts all blood red
i see you standing there like an angel
and i say baby i must be dead
you put your arms around me
you put your arms around me
you put your arms around me

Maybe I'll be your Hometown Fantasy
But I'm not battery-operated
or as sharp as you are serrated
And maybe, I'll be, a steam-train all metal and black
If you'll lay down my track
Till it's time for you to get back

your just the after thought.

And he belongs to mee.

Meet my puppy. I love him. He pees a lot and leaves trails of his paw prints all over the wood floor haha. But I'm learning to live with that. You should see him sometimes. When he doesn't have food he'll drag his bowl from the other room to where I'm at so he could catch my attention. It's adorable. I can't even sit at my computer when I come home after school because he'll sit there and bark at me to play with him. We mostly cuddle together and watch basketball games. Or I'll take him outside to smell the breeze and he'll watch the other dogs jump around and run. I'm teaching him how to fetch. Slowly hahaa :) For now he has a lot of growing up to do. I'll take care of him

Terrible sting, terrible storm I can tell you...

Oh admiration in falling asleep..
OH! hi there hah.

The weepies remind me of The Fray which reminds me of autumn and makes me remember coffee and staying up late. I'm listening to an early demo of Still Ain't over You by Augustana and I love the lyrics to this one. "Miles away from home am I, the same old shit the same damn run, I still ain't over you." I love when Dan Layus play's the harmonica. It's a beautiful thing to listen to. This weekend I spent the whole time driving and being yelled at from my dad. He makes me so nervous. I can never be in the car without him shouting things at me, like "Your going to fast" "Why do you want to speed so bad?" "Go thirty" "Dad, it says 40!" "I don't care!" I can't wait to be on my own. I need to start applying for jobs. I can't stand to be here at home with no money to go out places. I couldn't see my boyfriend this weekend either. We had planned to do many things for our time spent together. Even that couldn't happen. I felt like a terrible girlfriend. Which I am 78% of the time. But he makes me smile. I don't want him to go away. Next week is teramelos. I hope I can have permission to go. I wish my mom wasn't so uptight about boys. Oh yeah, Rody got his first car today!! We drove around then my boyfriend texted me something sweet so I threw my arms out the window and I couldn't have felt any more happier. Life is wonderful right now.

So I'll dig a hole in my room

today afterschool alexis and I went to our hangout spot by the creek and the wind was blowing pretty fast and i felt it on my back and arms and it gave me this reminder of the ocean. I feel nostalgic 98% of the time. Everything I seem to go through always reminds me of that one moment and that one time and how I miss it so much. I've come to realizations that I should try to not be so nostalgic all the time. It can be unhealtly. Especially when you realize it and that's the worst part. Baby if your reading this (which you probably aren't and that's okay) don't get upset that I've been picturing Isaac Slade everywhere. Fuck, what am I saying. Anyway, It's very mental of me and it's wicked weird and scary for me too!! Because like, we're driving by this starbucks which is by the airport and also by my house and I picture him sitting there outside in the table by himself reading some mystery novel with a magic hat on and his legs crossed with his coffee near. At least it was that first time I thought I saw him. I left Dallas with this mental thought of him driving a gray dodge. I just needed to let that out. Especially over the internet. So people can laugh at my posts and make fun of me. Just like my brothers. I'm so glad Blink 182 is back. If there is one rock star that I want to spend an enchanting evening with, that would be Tom Delonge. He's been my first rockstar crush since I was 13. God, I am so crazy for him. MARRY ME TOM :p

what's left of you

Lex, lex, lex, I can't stop thinking about him. at all. It makes me feel slightly pathetic at times. But then I remember. I remember when he looks at me with that innocent face he does when he knows he's being utterly cute. I remember when he starts singing when he's walking towards me. I remember when he grabs my hands to feel his heart beat just because. I remember all the sweet words he writes for me on letters. I remember when he kisses my forehead and cheeks and tells me I am perfect. and then I don't feel quite so pathetic.
I really really love how everything between us is on fire and still we can be such good friends. I like how amazing it feels like to be wrapped in his arms and how soft and gentle his hands are when his fingers are intertwined with mine. and when his smell surrounds me. He's my only fear.

we all shine on

I feel now that my favorite band is coming out with the IPHONE application of getting to see what goes on behind backstage and everything that makes them so special for me, i'll lose touchh. I don't want to miss a thing..I don't want to give that up.. I don't have a job to pay for an itunes pass and I won't even bother to ask my mom because she's tight on money too.
Everything is a budget right now. and it sucks. I feel terrible.
I just want all my favorite people with me all the time and i want to live in farmlands sometimes and be with the animals and raise sheeps and goats and watch the stars and have moments with nature and music and poetry and have that be the best days ever. xd
I have the best English Teacher ever.

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sing to me the song of the stars

01. Art Brut - Nag Nag Nag Nag
02. Rose Melberg - Each New Day
03. Coldplay - Death and all his friends
04. Cocorosie - Animals
05. Modest Mouse - The World At Large
06. The Fray - Say When
07. The Postal Service - Sleeping in
08. Nada Surf - Blonde on Blonde
09. Conor Oberst - Moab
10. Holiday Parade - Success Story
11. Greg Laswell - High and Low
12. The Strokes - Reptilla
13. The Smashing Pumpkins - Perfect
14. Counting Crows - Round here
15. Brand New - The boy who blocked his own shot
16. The Damnwells - Stay
17. The Weepies - Citywide Rodeo
18. The Rocket Summer - That's so you
19. Cassino - Governor
20. Regina Spektor - Summer in the city
21. Okkervil River - For Real
22. Third Eye Blind - Slow motion
23. Seabear - I sing I swim
24. Jack Johnson - Flake
25. Radiohead - Videotape
26. Augustana - Hey Now
27. Deathcab For Cutie - A lack of color
28. Bright Eyes - Nothing get's crossed out
29. Ben Kweller - I gotta move
30. Against Me! - Baby, I'm an anarchist
31. Manchester Orchestra - Colly Strings



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