I'm gonna make through this year if it kills me

I wonder if I've ever inspired anyone. I hope I have. I feel like I missed out on this year. I haven't had a camera since May. Mostly it's the fact of not having ANY camera with me since then. :/ My camera is broken. The first camera I ever bought in 2006. The only camera that I used onstage with The Fray. It was the shittiest camera but I didn't care. I don't understand how I deserve any of this. I've had this ache inside of me for the longest. I love taking pictures. I know it sounds cliche but I've figured it out. This is what I want to do. This is something that makes me happy. even if I haven't spent much time with a camera this year. But the times that I have, Oh God. This is the only thing I think I'm good at. And those times I've been made fun of by my brothers are gonna make me stronger. That won't make me stop. I want to capture my life on a camera so bad. I won't give up. Just like someone said this summer. Don't give up. It's funny how certain things can keep you going and keep you pushing until you get where you want to be in life.