At their faces I'm looking But your feet I'm following

3 days have passed since I last saw The Fray. And I realize that time is a fragment in our minds. All of "it goes away so quickly it was never there to begin with"...At least it's how I feel each time they leave me in such a state. But I have my memories to keep and my dreams to wander as far as. I feel like my head is going to explode. I just want to let you, my blog, this other existence of my secrecy that I never share in real life. My loneliness and whatever you want to call it haha. Let you know that last Saturday night was best. God, I wish you could know clearly how fine it felt for me to see them move and respond to their music so well on stage. It's the most precious thing to see in my eyes. I don't know when I will get to see that again but I sure hope it's very soon. When I saw Meese on that stage turn into a reality, my heart soaked itself with happiness. It was true and pure. I wasn't going insane. So I took all of it in. I started breathing heaven. or something spontaneous like that. :) I'm so glad it happened. Here's a list of things I want to share with you. I think you'll understand. or maybe you already do, I don't know anymore.

1.) Rod Blackhurst walks up to the stage in front of the barricade right before The Fray's set just before 9pm and tells me "For you Jeannette" or idk, I couldn't hear him well because it happened so fast. But I heard my name. And he gives me this:



That was the sweetest thing anyone could do for me. I'm gonna hang it on my wall and whenever I look up at it I will remember July 25, 2009. I wish I knew how it happened. and why he did it.

2.) Joe, Dave, Ben, Isaac +crew come out during Meese's set to prank and wrap toilet paper all over them haha :) It was a sight to see.

3.)Isaac sings "Where The Story Ends" as a piano solo.

4.)Meese comes out in Underwear during "Heartless"

Those were major parts of the night. I wrote all the other significant pieces in my notebook to keep for myself.

In other news, I need to climb out of this hole I'm stuck sitting in now. I do enjoy the hole but it's not safe. I do want to lay there and watch the clouds pass by day and night and not worry about a thing. because at least I have that but that's not how I should spend myself. I need to snap out of it..for now I guess.