she's my favorite mixtape.

I've been working out a lot lately. Just my stomach. I think it's because I don't want to be overweight when I get older. Or maybe I've been watching too many movies with girls that have beautiful bodies. I want to be beautiful just like them. =/
I'm gonna start looking for a job soon. I can't stand being without money. I feel like I'm missing out on the good stuff. And when I graduate, I want a new wardrobe. I want summer to be here so I can buy pretty dresses and walk around barefoot and wear my hair down. There's so many things I want to change when I grow up and become a woman. I could only dream until I start to see the difference.
I'm gonna miss everything that made January so perfect for me. I think this year I might learn a lot. I still can't believe Harrison left The Morning Light. His voice was powerful for me. I never got to say Hello. But I'm glad Bobby decided to keep the band from breaking up. They have gone so far. Can't wait for March when I see them again. and ace and Christofer..
The Fray.
they don't even know how terrible of a state they left me in.
I check on them everyday. I love seeing how there doinggg, it just puts the most sincerest smile on my face y'know? Hah..more than anything in the world. More than when a boy I'm crushing hard on tells me he likes me too.
I don't know who I'm trying to kid.
I'm so stupid
but I'm not you see, because I'm happy.
Even when there away 97% of the time from me.
"It happened right then; he looked at me, and it was the thing I'd been waiting for but didn't know it. I don't mean anything corny like I fell in love or even into a crush or anything like that. It was more a feeling like when I'd get picked first for volleyball or find one of those stupid school candy grams in my locker. It was knowing someone else thought about me for more than one second, maybe even thought about me when I wasn't there."