We both know it's going to be another long winter
The kind that freezes shut the doors of early spring
But I'll still let you in.
When I hear you knocking, with a whisper
I'll open the doors and I'll let you in
Depressing things are empty beds and lonely dinners
And women who are middle aged with naked fingers
I'll buy myself a ring
To symbolize this marriage every time I break the laws to let you in
Cause nothing's worse than seeing you worse than me
And nothing hurts like seeing you hurt like me
The consequence is less than the happiness you bring to me
There's more to give than what you take from me
Cause nothing's worse than seeing you worse than me
And nothing hurts like seeing you hurt like me
The consequence is less than the happiness you bring to me
There's more to give than what you take from me
Believe in the things that you know
Believe in the things that you know
Sunshine, throw a starving man a piece of bread
All I said, I didn't mean
The chill is strong and nothing seems
To thaw the icy sentiment
Of love that's gone once winter's spent

For the record, NEW MEESE ALBUM COMES OUT TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am at lost for words. **SPOILERS** The entire NEW album is up on their myspace as of YESTERDAY. I can't even begin to take it all in. They released more dates with Barcelona after this small tour with The Fray. SO after I see them in JULY, they come back again in AUGUST?? Yeah, ridonkulous if you ask me. Broadcast sounds so purrrty and Taking The World On is just **sigh** I can't even tell you. I can't wait for when I see them live for the first time. I'm trying to remember all the new lyrics by memory. SEEING HOW THERE'S SO MANY OF THEM IDK YET!! They remind me of a flower. I have gradually watched them bloom and grow so tall. Everyone should go take a listen to the new album before it's released tomorrow. They are putting on a free performance at twist n shout tomorrow in Denver. So psyched to hear about that. WOO

weeping willow won't you wallow louder

I'm a shake you off though
Get up on that horse and
Ride into the sunset
Look back with no remorse

It's bizarre how things for me have been as of lately. I keep trying to figure out what piece is missing in my puzzle. And if there's something I should be doing to find it. This whole year has just been a blurry haze. Do you ever feel that way? For me it's almost to unreal to bare. Slow walking on my way down and then I start to feel less alive. Like maybe all I need is an adrenaline run to something more exquisite than this. a hopeless reason I keep blabbering on about month after month. I've been ready for it a while now. Which is so stupid of me because I'm getting tired of waiting! I need shows. and film. and a car. and new jeans. and inspiration all the time. But that's not it. At least the brighter side is hitting me day by day. I get to witness Meese and The Fray and Jack's Mannequin all on the same stage two months from now. Rachel and I are getting close. so close. ever close. I'm getting my camera soon. Julia is sending me goodies in the mail. My legs are getting pretty..

"These heights get eerie after awhile. I want to go down, way down, far, far, down to the ocean.
That sounds right. Where the waves roll in slowly and there's always a roar and you can't fall anywhere. You're already there."

I have a new desktop background thanks to Rod Blackhurst, Cinematographer + Photographer of The Fray. It's sensational..

now that it's June,
we'll sleep out in the garden..
and if it rains we'll just sink into the mud.

I wake up exhausted it's not morning
It's back to sleep to re-dream me
We're alone and we're happy
But there you are, angry with me
Are you alright I can stand up straight
Are you alright can you get me off your mind
I hated this city before you came here
So let go and move on
We're strangers, we're not friends
I hate this and I hate them
This city's exhausted and it's wound up
Soon to be a place that's just filled up
And I found out that you're angry
And you're sorry you ever met me
Are you alright I can stand up straight
Are you alright can you get me off your mind
I am alright I can stand up straight
Are you alright can you get me off your mind

the medicine's all gone

Movies I've watched this past week..so far(If you care to knowwwww)
1. King of California
2. The Go-Getter
3. Hannah And Her Sisters (Woody Allen)
4. Matchpoint (Woody Allen)

there's other movies I'm interested in watching. This three day weekend is nice so far. I really am enjoying this. I just wish I had someone to cuddle with. and throw popcorn at. haha *sigh*. I picked up my Diana+ . We're having lots of fun together taking pictures. My puppy learned how to walk on a leash. He's so cutee. Now I need to teach him to sleep on his front side..haha. I let my hair dowwwn. wavy long. of course I used products, but no hair spray that makes your hair hard. it looks natural :) I just wish I had more pretty tank tops to go with it. Summer job here I come! I can't wait to start college in the fall.

I'm stuck here getting misty over you

Ace comes back on July 15 and then ten days later I will witness Meese and The Fray and Jack's Mannequin all on the same stage. The should do a cover all together. Oh my gawd. That would be ridonkulous. Anyway, it's the same stage Rod got me up on Friday, July 13, 2007 during Cable Car. I am delighted for this day to come. Only a few people understand how much this night will mean to me. I wish I was in Julia's position right now. She get's to see Andrew and The Fray in a venue instead of an amphitheater! and by then, Rod's package would've came and she'll hold his camera like a bible and only God would know what will happen after that. I kinda have this idea how it could be but I want her to read about that when my letters come. I can't wait to see the extra's rod will send. Julia deserves this camera more than anyone in the world. I really do think that. I can't also wait to see what she'll send to me hah. :p I will treasure it for whatever it may be. Right now the sky is purple and pink just like those summer dusk's. I can't wait for high school to be officially over. I keep thinking right now could have been different and I could have felt something else but I can't tell the difference. Maybe I need to wait for it. Either way, I want to believe I'm ready for the future and I really want to find out what else is out there. I wasn't lying when I told Julia about burying my converse in a box somewhere special. I hope she decides to do it with me too.