It's bizarre how things for me have been as of lately. I keep trying to figure out what piece is missing in my puzzle. And if there's something I should be doing to find it. This whole year has just been a blurry haze. Do you ever feel that way? For me it's almost to unreal to bare. Slow walking on my way down and then I start to feel less alive. Like maybe all I need is an adrenaline run to something more exquisite than this. a hopeless reason I keep blabbering on about month after month. I've been ready for it a while now. Which is so stupid of me because I'm getting tired of waiting! I need shows. and film. and a car. and new jeans. and inspiration all the time. But that's not it. At least the brighter side is hitting me day by day. I get to witness Meese and The Fray and Jack's Mannequin all on the same stage two months from now. Rachel and I are getting close. so close. ever close. I'm getting my camera soon. Julia is sending me goodies in the mail. My legs are getting pretty..
"These heights get eerie after awhile. I want to go down, way down, far, far, down to the ocean.
That sounds right. Where the waves roll in slowly and there's always a roar and you can't fall anywhere. You're already there."
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