through the best of times

so yesterday we played sims from 5pm to 5am. and there was a thunderstorm and we didn't even notice. me and anna are happily engaged with our hubbys on the sims. haha we're college students so we can't get married until we graduate. i love anna. im gonna miss her so much when she leaves to NY on the 6th. I'm gonna let her borrow my polaroid camera and shes bringing souvenirs for me. i bet she has no idea i haven't forgotten about that rock she gave me. its on my cd rack. and i still have to buy bedding for syd next time i come over. i hope i dont look back on this and ever say "I wish it was like this again" i think thats the thing that I fear most right now. Getting so attached to someone and then losing them. I think its safe to say shes becoming the best friend i ever had. she makes me happy

So when you go, tell me where are you going.

There's a sunset every evening, you miss in your car leaving to wherever it is that you're going.


I finally sent them. I hope she gets them soon. I dont know what to do with my life. I wonder how Walter is doing. He's mine and anna's mouse. When we bought him it was raining outside. I bought this shower curtain that I waiting to set up. And I finally have like twenty stamps.Its so nice getting a paycheck. Next Sunday is Warp Tour. I hope I don't go by myself. I really want to see Andrew McMahon live. I need to start getting better at recharging my phone. and I have yet to order 120 film for my Diana. I'm dying to use it. Its pretty bad.

she said sunset boulevard will take me home

Ashley and I watched the departed at Jose's house. and then we went to her's. and we watched the wedding singer and had like 15 minutes of pillow fighting. she knocked me out with the pillow at my face and then I played dead for awhile. so then i got right back up and knocker her out too. lol it was fun. i was drooling all over the place. then i told her all these secrets and she told me stuff too. and then i went home and played grand theft auto while Julia texted me about her day at the soccer field with z. i thought it was nice. i'm trying to get two bucks but its real hard Julia. Don't worry, you won your bet, I'm gonna pay you. I miss anna. she wants me to go to NY with her but I told my mom and she said No. she thinks i get crazier and crazier everyday. I dont want summer to end. oh and I can't stop listening to Bastard of Midnight. I think theres only one person that probably gets it. and shes miles and miles away. oh and I had to Make my mom a sandwich tonight and rub her feet so I can have permission to go to annas on Sat, thats if she's still up for it..

and where have you gone

Why do you run?
Why do you hide?
And where have you gone?
Where have you gone?
Where have you gone?



I have like seven letters to send out. Tomorrow is final. I'm getting the stamp booklet. I'm so happy I started my period already. That way I don't have to worry about getting it the day ace is here. I miss my boys. Isaac, ben, dave, Joe. I just felt like writing it. Kate you've been really moody lately. and as much as I wish I could be there for you like before, I don't think it could ever be that way again. You didn't do anything wrong. but when we stopped talking, it wasn't because we wanted it. Things were changing in our lives and we didn't find room to fit anything in our conversations. Now you want things to be the way they were before,but you can't decide to wake up one morning and ask for that all back. You put me through alot. You made me feel sorry for you. you wanted me to be alone and just have only you as a friend. You have said things that really hurt me. You weren't there when I needed you but I was always there for you. even when we didn't talk for months. Its been a year since all this change. You can't force a friendship to happen.I'm not saying I don't want you in my life anymore. Your still one of my good friends. but thats all. We cant call our selfs best friends if we really aren't. Stop behaving the way you do. It makes me sadder than ever. Maybe one day our list will happen. Remember? I remember. and I always told myself one day we'll make it happen. Its a shame to walk away from everything i know, from everything I want and leave you here all alone. I miss us too. but if its not working, we can't do anything about it. we're trying and we'll pull through. Just you watch. I'm so so sorry for being like this. just dont say I never cared

we watched garden state

Julia and I watched garden state together. and these were the best parts. "He said that right exactly as I read it" and then I made a wish at 11:11. today was great. I have this beautiful card/letter that anna made me. and I want to keep it forever. it means so much. that is all

And thats how the world began.

Anna and I saw Freddie Prinze JR when we we're eating rasberry almond crepe. because we could see everything from where we sat, which by the way was by a window and stools. then after we debated whether it was really him or not we walked in the ladys room when "an obese women" was urinating. it was so gross. anna stormed out the door. we couldn't get over it. then we crossed streets and shared talk. it was nice. i miss her. i really do because I never thought I could become so close with someone so fast. and she feels the same. we talked about it already. I don't care what any one says or what happened before all of this, but I'm happy. I haven't felt like this in a long time. Summer so far is having its perks. Its perfect and I love every single minute of it. It kind of reminds me of this quote off my favorite movie. (I promise I'm not gay) "You changed my life. You changed my life, and I've known you four days. This is the start of something really big, but right now, I gotta go." I think I'm gonna sleep great tonight. I really hope this road trip works out. I want to go to the city limit festival so bad now.

just take a look at the line up. do this huge favor for the both of us.
http://www.aclfestival.com/lineup.aspx

I want share this with someone so bad

teenage riot

what can I say?

I had a blast. we fed bread to the ducks and we sat on the docks and talked for what seemed like forever, we watched a bunch of old guys cover the beatles, which by the way were beyond great, we ate ice cream cones, we revisited borders where I met my ben and i told her about it, we had water fights, we drove and felt infinite, she secretly took pictures of me when I wasn't looking, we picked flowers, we played wii fitness lolll :D

p.s.

I'm so relieved right now. =))
i think everything is going really good