Memories rushing into your mind.

There is this guy at work who is standing right in front of me as I type this and he looks like an exact replica of Alex Dezen. He has the same hair cut, same short self, same eyes, same face features and he is really really smart and he's kinda anti social. He never says a word. I could never ask him if he's related to the Dezen's though. That would be weird of me. In other things, my mind has been everywhere. I can't seem to get myself together. I am all over the place. But the days are going by so fast just like they used to. :) PS. I am getting myself a ukulele very soon and I am going to learn how to play and sing my favorite songs...the end

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry


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these lyrics are last corrected by Chanelle Gagnon

Well it's only three days away from the fray concert and I am beyond excited. I can't remember when was the last time I looked forward to something like this. I know this can get repetetive but I just love expressing my feelings on here about my moments with them. I know i'm gonna look back at these moments and remember all those feelings that it brought me. I just can't wait to be there enjoying their company through their music again, this will be beyond everything on that day. I can't wait. And my cousin has been tagging along with me so it's so much fun, she's so in love with their music because of me haha and this will be her 4th concert I believe. She's almost catching up with me :) Ok blogger, talk to you guys later. Tomorrow I am off so tonight will consist of puppies and ghost hunter dvd mehehe

Wait for the year to drown.
Spring forward, fall back down.
I'm trying not to wonder where you are.

will i break or will i bend

In just a few days I will be back to all smiles. I just can not wait to see the fray again. I feel like i need to revive myself on so many levels and i just know this will help me escape. I've been stuck on stupid crap going on in my life. Like today I had a flat tire and that made me late for work. and I just got out of a stupid relationship and everything seems like it's been shot to hell ha. But I won't let that stand in my way. I can't believe i read act like a lady and think like a man. Never in a million years did i think i would be reading a guide book on men. I am so thankful for Steve Harvey's words and I am truly impressed as to how much he's opened my eyes. I now could safely say I know the difference between a keeper and a sportsfisher ha!! Anyway, i won't spend so much time on babbling about jerks. I just need to focus on myself and come to terms on my lonely life. It's only trying to protect me from men who are out to hurt me. I just hate how easy they "think" they can get away with hurting me. I know God has a special person for me. I need to slow down because I'm only 21 years old. Why am I trying to trap myself for a 27 year old anyway? I should be excited about new beginnings and my future. Eventhough I have no idea whats to come, I still have a spark of hope that's waiting to ignite :) 11 days. 11 days. only 11 days to see the greatest people in my life. i feel like crying of excitement at the thought of it. Ahh more to come. I have access to blogger at work. I just found that out today hehe woo talk to you later. bye now.

You were waiting for me, waiting for me.

It's Monday, May 7th, 2012 10:39 p.m and exactly seven days ago, I was seeing The Fray perform live. Two years went by where I didn't get to see them. Two years waiting silently. Hah but did they make the greatest comeback ever. Seeing them sing the best songs I had ever heard just made all of this time worth it.. :) Just like that their back in my life and everything that I once knew is starting to fade away and all I can think about is this band and thier music and life is worth it again. I smile and laugh not because of anyone special but because of them. I have something to look forward to again no matter how long I have to wait. I know when that moment arrives, it will be the most beautiful thing. I know I might sound like i'm sixteen again but I can't help how they make me feel. If you asked me what the best feeling in the world is I would tell you, them. Their the only ones I know that won't ever leave me. Their music will always be there for me. I read some article somewhere where Isaac says they are nowhere where they need to be. I got so happy when I read that.

Take Care...

Everything is different now. I don't remember who I am anymore. I drink more than I should and i don't know if it's just me growing up. I still love the same things. I love music more than anything in the world and that will never change. But these Boys are really starting to get into my head. They are fucking my head up with bullshit. I'm tired of being with the wrong people. I need to get my head back and start thinking about what really matters. Does drinking every night, matter? Do boys, matter? I am having so much fun but it feels like it comes with a big bag of bullshit after bullshit. The soundtrack since October has been Take Care. It's been one hell of a ride.

Let’s let go from the get go.

Let go let God.
Let it go.
Leave it alone.
Let it pass.
Let it be.
Laissez-faire.
C’est la vie.
What’s done is done.
Hang up on it.
Land the plane.
Don’t get on that train.
The bus has already left.
This too shall pass.
Shake it off.
Cut your losses.
Bust loose.
Break free.
It’s water under the bridge.
What comes around goes around.
Go around.
Get over it.
Get it together.
Get a grip.
Get moving.
Keep moving.
Move on.
Move forward.
Forward.
March.
Give it a rest.
Stop.
Drop it.
Squash it.
Release.
Please.
Relax.
Spilled water cannot be poured back.
Don’t look back.
Enough is enough.
Stand down.
Stay still.
Be quiet.
Quit dwelling.
Yield.
Forget it.
Forgive it.
Right now.
As is.
You will be given back the years that the locusts have taken.

- Buddy Wakefield

I can't find my phone. I went on an adventure with my friend Cameron today. His red hair really makes me smile and his freckles suit him. I took pictures of him all day and we ate sonic and i dropped off my disposable and now I have more pictures to hang on my wall. I am so happy.