...marking each day with a cross

I know it's not your problem but its true
I never have the time of day for you
you Dont have fever
You dont have fever
You dont have fever youve got you

Walk the streets alone
and striking out for home

I dont want other loved ones I want you
I dont want other loved ones I want you

You dont have fever
You dont have fever
You dont have fever youve got you

walk the streets at night
you've been lookin for a fight

Sometimes what youre after's not your fault
Cuz happy ever after's what youre taught

You dont have fever
You dont have fever
you dont have fever you've got you

No one makes you calm though you got people on your arm




FIVE DAYS

Fallin in and out

Happy Inauguration Day! Obama's speech was absolutely amazing. He made me laugh today but in a hopeful kind of way..

man


6 DAYS


I'm so overwhelmed

Jeannette

IS SEEING THE FRAY IN DALLAS. WITH MELINDAAAAA =)


oh my, my hands are shaking.
I don't know if I'm ready for this..

I have to get back to working my ass off around the house.
it's kinda fun cleaning and knowing that you get to see your favorite band in the world in EIGHT DAYS.
oh man..
oh crap
i can't believe it.

the little plastic castle

"Georgia Georgia
It's been many miles since I've seen your fallen smile
Close up and personal, your arsenal of excuses
You never told her when you walked out on the savannah shoulder
With your veins all full of beer,

thinking well at least now everything is clear"





I'm trying to find a way to Dallas. I have no money for gas so I have to figure that out..
The Fray is coming to Texas. I can't think straight, it's ripping my insides up in a very good way. I haven't felt this way since they left me here to wither and now I'm needing to bloom. Except no one feels that but me. The show is two days before my birthday. Just like two years ago. Except they visited a day before my birthday. I keep telling my mom that God wants me to go to the show and that he is the reason for all of this. I always pray to him that if I see The Fray next time, I want it to be special. I could scrapbook about it one day and never forget about this strange love I have for this band..omg. I'm gonna cry..

Only the dead stay seventeen forever

My birthday is coming up. I don't know if it's actually a good thing getting older and actually being called an adult. I want to stay seventeen forever. but when I was sixteen, I didn't want to become seventeen so it's something I fight myself through each year. I learned A LOT this year. If I speak with myself back when I was sixteen, I'd try to teach myself more about music, and art, and friendship, and shows, and cameras. I saw a lot of shows this year. And that's what I'm most grateful for. I met augustana three times, I met ace enders twice, I met Andrew Mcmahon, I met Bobby of The Morning light, I met Christofer Drew, I met Mason Jennings, I met David Johnston on drugs, I saw Conor Oberst, I met Joshua Radin, and other not so important people. I met a lot of new people and called them Friends. My polaroid camera became my best friend. I wrote more letters. I visited the Ocean. I had a job. Moments are things I don't ever want to forget. I read more books. I got in touch with my feelings. I was distant and lazy at one point in that year. I listened to Morrissey in my room on repeat. I sat in the rain. I finally realized why so many people love Bruce Springsteen. I let my hair grow out just so I can be reminded of spring time and The Damnwells. I only had one boyfriend this year and because of him I met a person I never thought could be real and not just in books I read. I became closer to my Pen Pal more than ever. I got my phone back. I lost my job. I became sad but a kind of sad that just takes time..

"Only the dead stay seventeen forever"
I'm ready.

Burnin' every bridge that I cross

A teenage dream's
So hard to beat
Everytime she walks down the street
Another girl in the neighborhood
Wish she was mine, she looks so good

I wanna hold her, wanna hold her tight
Teenage kicks right throught the night

I wanna call her on the telephone
Have her over cos' I'm all alone
I need excitement I need it bad
And she's the best i've ever had

I wanna hold her, wanna hold her tight
And get teenage kicks right throught the night

Maybe you had to be there

I went to Rachel's house after school and we had a picnic at a field near this freezing water stream. We did a lot of hiking and climbing but it was exciting. and then we watched the full moon and the bats fly above us. we collected picture frames that we found, we spotted a tent, a mudslide, seashells, our converse got muddy kind of. I would sit there wishing I had my camera. The skyline was perfect. after that, we went bike riding around the entire neighborhood and more walking. I sat skateboarding and held on a rope tied to Rachel while she pedaled away. I fell off like 20 times hahaha =) I'm gonna charge my camera so we can do it again tomorrow and I can actually take pictures of how perfect it is. I wish you were there =/

I can't wait for March. Ace Enders and The Morning Light
<3
Gotta love the springgg

Is there hope for this?

When you finally fade from those nights you spend
Doing god only knows with your new friends.
When you decide to come back you always can. Oh.
Our lives are separate roads We've picked our separate ways
But this love I've found reminds me every day
That I still believe in you
I still have faith.

I have faith that you'll find your way.
And realize your mistakes.
Cause I can't handle another night alone.

And so I'm tryin to find words to convince you to stay.
Tryin to pick myself up
But you're getting away.
I keep falling down.
The words won't come out.
My tongue twists in circles keeps them trapped in my mouth.
But I need the ocean or it's sand
Or the high that I felt when you first held my hand.
And honey I just can't feel right alone. Alone.

Is there hope for this?
Cause it's you that I miss.
And I can't handle another night alone.

Please stop the sound in the story line.
I'm falling apart
Watch me as I unravel tonight.
And sleep through my changing life.
Cause I can't handle another long goodbye.
Another sleepless night.
This is my story line