Only the dead stay seventeen forever

My birthday is coming up. I don't know if it's actually a good thing getting older and actually being called an adult. I want to stay seventeen forever. but when I was sixteen, I didn't want to become seventeen so it's something I fight myself through each year. I learned A LOT this year. If I speak with myself back when I was sixteen, I'd try to teach myself more about music, and art, and friendship, and shows, and cameras. I saw a lot of shows this year. And that's what I'm most grateful for. I met augustana three times, I met ace enders twice, I met Andrew Mcmahon, I met Bobby of The Morning light, I met Christofer Drew, I met Mason Jennings, I met David Johnston on drugs, I saw Conor Oberst, I met Joshua Radin, and other not so important people. I met a lot of new people and called them Friends. My polaroid camera became my best friend. I wrote more letters. I visited the Ocean. I had a job. Moments are things I don't ever want to forget. I read more books. I got in touch with my feelings. I was distant and lazy at one point in that year. I listened to Morrissey in my room on repeat. I sat in the rain. I finally realized why so many people love Bruce Springsteen. I let my hair grow out just so I can be reminded of spring time and The Damnwells. I only had one boyfriend this year and because of him I met a person I never thought could be real and not just in books I read. I became closer to my Pen Pal more than ever. I got my phone back. I lost my job. I became sad but a kind of sad that just takes time..

"Only the dead stay seventeen forever"
I'm ready.