and where have you gone

Why do you run?
Why do you hide?
And where have you gone?
Where have you gone?
Where have you gone?



I have like seven letters to send out. Tomorrow is final. I'm getting the stamp booklet. I'm so happy I started my period already. That way I don't have to worry about getting it the day ace is here. I miss my boys. Isaac, ben, dave, Joe. I just felt like writing it. Kate you've been really moody lately. and as much as I wish I could be there for you like before, I don't think it could ever be that way again. You didn't do anything wrong. but when we stopped talking, it wasn't because we wanted it. Things were changing in our lives and we didn't find room to fit anything in our conversations. Now you want things to be the way they were before,but you can't decide to wake up one morning and ask for that all back. You put me through alot. You made me feel sorry for you. you wanted me to be alone and just have only you as a friend. You have said things that really hurt me. You weren't there when I needed you but I was always there for you. even when we didn't talk for months. Its been a year since all this change. You can't force a friendship to happen.I'm not saying I don't want you in my life anymore. Your still one of my good friends. but thats all. We cant call our selfs best friends if we really aren't. Stop behaving the way you do. It makes me sadder than ever. Maybe one day our list will happen. Remember? I remember. and I always told myself one day we'll make it happen. Its a shame to walk away from everything i know, from everything I want and leave you here all alone. I miss us too. but if its not working, we can't do anything about it. we're trying and we'll pull through. Just you watch. I'm so so sorry for being like this. just dont say I never cared

we watched garden state

Julia and I watched garden state together. and these were the best parts. "He said that right exactly as I read it" and then I made a wish at 11:11. today was great. I have this beautiful card/letter that anna made me. and I want to keep it forever. it means so much. that is all

And thats how the world began.

Anna and I saw Freddie Prinze JR when we we're eating rasberry almond crepe. because we could see everything from where we sat, which by the way was by a window and stools. then after we debated whether it was really him or not we walked in the ladys room when "an obese women" was urinating. it was so gross. anna stormed out the door. we couldn't get over it. then we crossed streets and shared talk. it was nice. i miss her. i really do because I never thought I could become so close with someone so fast. and she feels the same. we talked about it already. I don't care what any one says or what happened before all of this, but I'm happy. I haven't felt like this in a long time. Summer so far is having its perks. Its perfect and I love every single minute of it. It kind of reminds me of this quote off my favorite movie. (I promise I'm not gay) "You changed my life. You changed my life, and I've known you four days. This is the start of something really big, but right now, I gotta go." I think I'm gonna sleep great tonight. I really hope this road trip works out. I want to go to the city limit festival so bad now.

just take a look at the line up. do this huge favor for the both of us.
http://www.aclfestival.com/lineup.aspx

I want share this with someone so bad

teenage riot

what can I say?

I had a blast. we fed bread to the ducks and we sat on the docks and talked for what seemed like forever, we watched a bunch of old guys cover the beatles, which by the way were beyond great, we ate ice cream cones, we revisited borders where I met my ben and i told her about it, we had water fights, we drove and felt infinite, she secretly took pictures of me when I wasn't looking, we picked flowers, we played wii fitness lolll :D

p.s.

I'm so relieved right now. =))
i think everything is going really good

"Jeannette's stufffff"

Today I read all of Julia's letters to my mom. So Julia if your reading this, my mom couldn't stop smiling from all of your ramble lol. Because I put all of the stufff that's important to me in this pretty purple new box I bought. Ashley inspired me to buy it haha. It has all of my polaroids and letters and seashells and my pit bracelet from July 13 and all my tickets stubs and the sharpie augustana used to sign my cd and dan's pick and old flowers in a napkin and more polaroids and my diary and yeah. I still want to add more stuff in it, but I think time is gonna adjust that. I went to the doctors today. and I have pink eye. ew and I have to miss work today and tomorrow and today I was suppose to see you know who. ehh =/ I can't wait for my shirt to come in the mail. I think its perfect. I'm gonna go back to tucking myself in bed and listen to ace enders and write letters even though I have no stamps right now. hee byeee

friday. the 13th

today was kind of perfect =)
i heard cable car when we were walking away from the pool
last year friday the 13th on July was The fray

Your heartbeat plays my favorite song

today was a weird day. I did the nature walk by myself and Ashely was suppose to come with me but instead she stayed in the car with her boyfriend. He forgot to pick us up so she was being ridiculously emotional. &I got mad. she called my phone later that day and we made up. I ended up staying at her house talking about stufff, sorting through all her notes, and me straighting her hair lol
I'm enjoying summer while its here.

whatever.

love always, me