It's the song that they don't sing

I figured it out. I might be eluded to certain things but these epiphanies that I keep having and these moments that are significant and have passed already well something is telling me that they still linger. and it's happening right now and everything that has led me up to that point wants me to know that it never left. I'm gonna stay. I'm attached and I don't plan on leaving. There's this spark growing inside of me and it's making me feel warm and safe and that's exactly what i need right now. i don't want to sound selfish but things tend to disappear and at the end of the day you're alone again and right now i just want to feel a part of something out of my control. i hope that makes sense. my mind is in a mumble jumble and so is everything inside of me. January 13. I promise it will be special.