We were having fun

Actually my first counting crows concert was when I saw augustana in 2008? And Dan was sharing the mic with Adam. I don't know how that skipped my mind. Memory isn't doing so good no mo. It ain't the same that's for sure. Over and out.

No need to say goodbye

I kinda wanna say this was right after Isaac sprinted the entire place during over my head?? :) and when my phone fell on the other side of the barricade and I was hoping I had pressed record on my microphone but I didn't and I can remember the crowd saying "he's coming towards us" and before I knew it, Isaac was right there. and these faces in this picture and how I feel like it made the show special and how stage right is totally cut off the picture and the drunk guy behind me telling his story of his ex girl friend not showing up and him being alone at a Kelly Clarkson concert. There's so many moments from that day. Like I was sitting in my car in a parking garage having a beer and I was feeling kinda good and I heard music and I thought it was coming from the garage and when i rolled down my window I realized it was Kelly's voice and I quickly dropped everything I was doing and started walking towards soundcheck. and then the realization of assigned seating, how i thought it wouldn't be so bad and it wasn't so bad :) I'm so glad I ran into this picture today on their site. It was a fair surprise :) This picture deserves to be framed. It really really does.

Liberal arts isn't showing in any theater near me and I'm super bummed about it. That movie reminds me of certain thought's hah. I'm glad it exists. It looks like it's going to be a beautiful film. I started working at the bakery today. I'm exhausted. But I'm looking forward to making money and saving up towards a new camera. And I've been going jogging every morning and my stamina is getting better and it feels really really good. Anyway, I'm so annoyed by everyone on my friends list who I know in real life. I have a tendency to ignore people and their messages. every. time. I hope that's not wrong. I need new people in my life! This month I read something along the lines of an Aquarius half moon and well that night I saw a shooting star and I made a wish. I don't know what the future lies ahead but I know God has something up his sleeve and he is watching me very closely. So I pray. Today I ordered my ticket to see my first Counting Crows concert. Adam Duritz has had his share of shows and I know it's probably repetitive for him but I hope there's some type of energy in the air that will make him feel different. I hope it can be a first time for him too. I love going to shows and experiencing it happening before me. I want it to be a picture this forever moment. I want to look up to that. Another thing that's been on my mind., some people around me have been saying they don't have dreams anymore or they can't remember them. I am so lucky to have them everyday and actually remember them. They may not be real but they are the closest thing to my happiness.

“Maybe they’re emotionally bad but some good, just like a scar where you get… you’re hurt or you get cut, you get bruised, but then you hopefully heal and you move on and you have that mark to remind you of where you’ve been and who you are.”

Goodnight :)

it can't stop i wonder

Like sleep walking i'm sleepsinging

My Saturday night will consist of rare recordings from a really amazing band.. I just can't wait to get my night started. Before I do all of that, I do want to write about today and seeing Alex and Cameron Dezen playing a nice set in a record store. It was everything I imagined it would be. I almost cried on one of the songs because the lyrics were so powerful. Alex Dezen wrote the song so I think that has alot to do with it. I almost left without saying a word to him but I had to swallow every nerve I had in me and just pretend I was going to be interviewed for some really awesome job. I think I did okay, my knees were shaking and I think he could tell by my voice that I was having trouble but then he started to tell me really nice things about him remembering me when I was eighteen and if I graduated from high school yet haaah. I asked him which song was it that Cameron sung when they opened up for The Fray back in 2006 and he thinks it was "Sleepsinging" :) Our conversation seemed so natural as if we were old friends catching up when we started talking about the past. Then I realized I was standing in front of the person who's music I love and hold dear to my heart so I started getting real nervous again. I asked him when will he be coming back because someone who was getting married had actually paid for his plane ticket to Houston and he said sometime in November. This season so far is treating me pretty damn good and these moments are happening and I am SO happy. Now i get to put on my big headphones and listen to the best recordings that have ever been given to me. This season is good.

She said she's like to meet a boy who looks like Elvis

So for my birthday I might go see Julia in Washington State. This means the best day of my life. I can't believe this might finally happen.

I can't wait to start this double exposure project with Julia. I have certain places in mind that I want to visit. I recently developed four rolls of film. Most of the pictures were really random. I need to remind myself to save film. Now I don't have any film to shoot with when I see Alex Dezen on Saturday. Overall I'm really proud of most of the pictures. That's the thing with film, i just want to pack everything in a 4x6 photo album now.

Picture this forever

Today was perfect. Went to the pier in Galveston. I got a all access pass and rode all 16 rides until I felt sick ha. Took pictures of strangers on the board walk, walked along the shoreline. On one of the rides I was swinging 200ft in the air and "Never say never" started to play and the sun was setting and the sky was a pinkish gold color and I didn't want to be anywhere else but there. The ride lasted the entire song and before I knew it, it was over. I'm still sad I couldn't be in Austin to see Neil Young. I know that would've been really good but now I'm in a hotel and I'm watching HBO. Damn it's the same hotel I was when I came to Miami. Tomorrow we go back to the ocean and then home. I spotted a street called Jack Johnson near the seawall so I'm gonna go and drive up there to take a picture of it. Man I really needed a sunburn. Be well :)

I'm gonna cry. My brother doesn't know how to drive and that scares me. I think he is the worst driver ever. I don't know how he even got his license. I just don't know how to help him because he doesn't believe any word I say and I'm just trying to help him. Okay we're driving now, gotta keep my eyes on the road...AHHH!!!

In the theater right under the film room waiting for perks to begin rolling. Alone. There's one old couple sitting at the very front and it's just pretty much us three. But I don't mind them, they seem alright. The Levi's ad just came on. I almost got teary eyed. Oh this is going to be lovely. And the really cute guy who tore my ticket smiled at me and I think he gets it.

Days die young

Today was good. I went and took photos at the tranquility park and some drunk man was lying in some bushes faced down haha. And and i kept taking pictures of everything and the sun was setting so it was hitting all the buildings and trees and there were couples walking together and everything was glowing. I felt kinda happy and I kept getting stared at but I kept smiling and not even looking at anyone in the eyes. I want everything to be happy. And I just hope I can catch that through my photos. On the way back my friend played The Fray and he kept singing every word and we were yelling the song at the top of our lungs. Such a good feeling. I'm going to put all there mixed songs on a playlist and burn it on a cd. Like for example the new remix forever more and latiendo :) I told my friend that the fray are my light. And I regret not paying for the meet and greet back in April. What was I thinking when I didn't take advantage. Now I have to wait another two years.

She said, “It’s only in my head.” She said, “I don’t know I don’t know I don’t know.” Like if it’s only in your head. But it doesn’t feel like it’s in my head. It doesn’t feel like it’s in my head. So she said, “Did you think that you were dreaming?” And I said, “No I didn’t think I was dreaming.” So I said, “I just want it to come true. All I need is you.” But the circus is falling down on it’s knees and the big top is just crumbling down. Look it’s raining in Baltimore, 50 miles east where you should be. No ones around. I need a phone call. I need a raincoat. I really need a big love. These train conversations there just passing me by and ain’t got nothing to say except, you know you get what you paid for. But I just have no intention of living this way. I need a phone call and I need a raincoat. Man, I really need a sunburn. See there are these things that I remember and there’s things I forget. I miss you. I guess that I should but you know, it is 3,500 miles away. And what would you change. What would you change if you could? Nothing. So fuck, I need a phone call. Or maybe I should just buy a new car. Cus I can always here the freight train. Baby if I listen real hard. And I wish it was a small world because I’m lonely for big towns.