where are you now?

it's that time of year. When you pop in that Christmas cd in your car and you have it repeated over and over. We did that each December. Now this year is different. and I'm on my own. I am listening to The Fray's Holiday Ep. I feel this chill in my bones. The tone in Isaac's voice is warm and i can already picture myself driving with the Christmas Ep on repeat and the car heater on my face and everything is beautiful and the grass is gold and the sky is gray. December is coming to a close end. I am so happy I have the day off tomorrow. I want everything to be frozen right now. What I'm feeling right now. Holy cow. My birthday is soon. I came home from work today and you won't believe what I saw. Five glow of lights lined up in a row hovering the sky. and then everywhere else (the lower part of the sky) were tiny sate lights all over. Everything was quiet. No planes no nothing. just those tiny little sate lights moving slowly. I sat out there with my brother and we just freaked out and watched. Maybe it's North Korea, China, or Russia. Or aliens. Or our government? I'm so stupid. But it reminded me so much of that dream I had where I saw the exact thing except everything blew up after that. That was a nightmare. All of that is making me feel like watching Mysterious Skin again. You know that part when..ah yeah nvm hah. I don't know. I don't know. All of that was just identifying and I almost called the police to hear any reports. But thank God I didn't. I am probably just crazy. This ep is good. real good. dnasdioufwehrreyrefhdagyfarahfuwe Merry Christmas.