She doesn't get it It's all before she was born

Today is my one month anniversary since I last saw The Fray in Dallas.
I haven't stopped thinking about that day since it happened. Which is mental, I agree.
I just can't understand how someone could get over a day like January 26, 2009 so easily.
I also can't believe that it's been one month! Time goes by so fast.

Check this out
http://news.aol.com/article/eye-of-god/360730

I fell asleep with a smile on

I remember Citywide Rodeo coming up on my mix cd. I was returning home from seeing The Fray in Dallas, the beginning of a long drive. I remember lying on my back side in the back seat looking up at the tinted window watching the stars, thinking about all that happened that day. I got the same exact feeling I had felt earlier when I saw the guys for the first time in a long time. Tucked just underneath my rib cage. It was the first time too in a long time that I didn't listen to that song. I even almost forgot how perfect it sounded. Those words were just what I needed that night. I thought it was the greatest way to end January 26, 2009. So the song played and the stars? Couldn't have shined any brighter.

itunes shuffle

How does the world see you?
Look after you - The Fray (haha :))

Will I have a happy life?
7 shades of Black - The Smashing Pumpkins

What do my friends really think of me?
Harrowdown Hill - Thom Yorke (Best SONG)

Do people secretly lust after me?
Rain King - Sonic Youth

How can I make myself happy?
Sweet Darlin' - She & Him

What should I do with my life?
Fever - Takka Takka

Will I ever have children?
Bubble Toes - Jack Johnson

What is some good advice for me?
Odalisque - The Decemberists

How will I be remembered?
Rocket - The Smashing Pumpkins

What is my signature dancing song?
Everyday Stranger - Sara Bareiiles

What do I think my current theme song is?
Ever So Sweet - The Early November

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Milk And Money - The Fratellis

What song will play at my funeral?
This ruined Puzzle - Dashboard Confessional

What type of men/women do you like?
Don't know when but a day gonna come - Bright Eyes <3

What is my day going to be like?
West Coast Friendship - Owl City




re-reading 1984.
dreaming about flying.
dyeing my hair back to normal.
teaching lizzy to walk on a leash.
watching life pass me by.
craving strawberry and banana smoothies.
thinking hard about spring break and summer.
trying hard to fit in with the loud people.
feeling nostalgic of academy. (once 2nd home and favorite job)
I miss it there so much. I miss my manager Robert and just all the people I got so close with. Academy was my 2nd home believe it or not
I deserved to get fired.
They gave me so many breaks. (chances)

ben was "killing the vibe" hahaha! *sigh* that was a great night ")

citywide rodeo

Citywide rodeo, you set on the stage
Where all the clowns will go when they feel their age

I know that you think you're not good for anything
The world makes you feel so small
Get on your wooden horse
This is a ride, not a fight
No need to save face, say goodnight, Grace
"Good night, Grace."

There's dust on the stadium seats, there's dust in your hair
You wonder how fast you'll go when you hit the air

And oh, isn't it strange how things can change you?
And oh, isn't it plain that some things unname you
So don't ask anybody else.

Citywide rodeo, step into your car
Look up at the indigo and pick out your star.

Did your faithful chauffeur just disappear?

What a lonesome feeling
To be waiting around
Like some washed up actress
In a Tinseltown



DAN LAYUS SOLO SHOW IN HOUSTON, TEXAS. IN MARCH


MY HANDS ARE SHAKING..................I don't know how to handle this. I'm just gonna take deep breaths to keep calm.


Spring is starting to reappear in front of my eyes. The trees are lovelyy :)
I really like the month of March. I think spring will be great this year.

But I've never been this scared before

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MihU0Kw8Okg


watch this video I made?? I think you would like it maybe. It rained that evening on V-day. I used Where The Story Ends (Acoustic) and I think the song fits the mood pretty nicely, what do you think?

Friday, July 13 2007

yeah..hah. ")
The Fray announced an official summer tour with Jack's Mannequin todayy.
and I have a strong desire to know as much as I can about Poseidon.
There's suppose to be a thunderstorm tomorrow on V-day.
I want to take Polaroids of Rachel at this tiny beach near our house but I don't know now.
I'm still excited about the announcement. The first person I thought about was Julia and how perfect it would be for her to see Andrew and The Fray together. I know she wants it to happen badly. I miss my phone. I need stamps. I keep forgetting I'm eighteen. I'm still so mad at lizzy for chewing on my delux Fray album. It looks horrible :( I listened to Fair Fight on repeat last night and the fray live @ Kidd Kraddick. That interview makes me laugh everytime. The Fray's self title album is the most precious thing I have ever heard. and God I mean it.


"Sometimes I feel like there's a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn.
I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean."

"I'm gonna love you again when I hear you sing"

That's this video by the way

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=018h-PXSWFE

I want to be your dandelion.

She said, "Come on, just let me breathe,
I'm tangling now that you leave, get me back to myself.
Tried a thousand and one times,
but the lines are undone,
why not believe what you felt?"

She wants you, she needs you
A hurricane to leave through
But can you shut up long enough to fall in love?"

Oh the damnwells. <3

ah i remember this song.

These chords are old but we shake hands Cause I believe that they're the good guys We can use all the help we can So many minor chords outside I fell in love with your sound Oh I love to sing along with you We got tunes we kicked around We got a bucket that the tunes go through Babe we both had dry spells Hard times in bad lands I'm a good man for ya I'm a good man Last night there was a horse in the road I was twisting in the hairpin My hands held on my mind let go And back to you my heart went skipping I found the inside of the road Thought about the first time that I met you All those glances that we stole Sometimes if you want them then you've got to Babe we both had dry spells Hard times in bad lands I'm a good man for ya I'm a good man They shot a Western south of here They had him cornered in a canyon And even his horse had disappeared They said it got run down by a bad bad man You're not a good shot but I'm worse And there's so much where we ain't been yet So swing up on this little horse The only thing we'll hit is sunset Babe we both had dry spells Hard times in bad lands I'm a good man for ya I'm a good man

things I hate

FEELING GROUNDED.



IS IT OKAY IF I JUST SEE WHAT HAPPENS?
I SHOULDN'T HAVE PUT MYSELF IN THIS!!
I WAS ASKING FOR IT
AND THEN IT HIT ME TO WHERE I WANTED TO RUN AWAY FROM IT.
I DON'T LIKE HAVING RESPONSIBILITY AT THIS AGE HAH =/
man.
I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M ACTING THIS WAY.
I'M GONNA GO PLAY WITH LIZZY, SHE'S MY ONLY TRUE LOVE.

he said ask anything.

I love fair fight so much. I love every single spec about it. I'm listening to them live at the 930 club right noww. It came with the delux version of the album. I stayed home to watch them on GMA and now I think I'm gonna watch Fair Fight all over again and then listen to the album because its absolutely perfect. It really paid off to see them struggle during that period. It shows in there songs. Last night I couldn't sleep. I had the pressure and struggle it took to make Fair Fight come over me. I was so weak thinking about it and it played in my head like a montage. I remember feeling so hot. I never loved a band so much in my life until I heard The Fray.

I've been working out a lot lately. Just my stomach. I think it's because I don't want to be overweight when I get older. Or maybe I've been watching too many movies with girls that have beautiful bodies. I want to be beautiful just like them. =/
I'm gonna start looking for a job soon. I can't stand being without money. I feel like I'm missing out on the good stuff. And when I graduate, I want a new wardrobe. I want summer to be here so I can buy pretty dresses and walk around barefoot and wear my hair down. There's so many things I want to change when I grow up and become a woman. I could only dream until I start to see the difference.
I'm gonna miss everything that made January so perfect for me. I think this year I might learn a lot. I still can't believe Harrison left The Morning Light. His voice was powerful for me. I never got to say Hello. But I'm glad Bobby decided to keep the band from breaking up. They have gone so far. Can't wait for March when I see them again. and ace and Christofer..
The Fray.
they don't even know how terrible of a state they left me in.
I check on them everyday. I love seeing how there doinggg, it just puts the most sincerest smile on my face y'know? Hah..more than anything in the world. More than when a boy I'm crushing hard on tells me he likes me too.
I don't know who I'm trying to kid.
I'm so stupid
but I'm not you see, because I'm happy.
Even when there away 97% of the time from me.
"It happened right then; he looked at me, and it was the thing I'd been waiting for but didn't know it. I don't mean anything corny like I fell in love or even into a crush or anything like that. It was more a feeling like when I'd get picked first for volleyball or find one of those stupid school candy grams in my locker. It was knowing someone else thought about me for more than one second, maybe even thought about me when I wasn't there."