i slept through all today and rearranged my head.

Sometimes I wish my feelings would just disappear. and I wouldn't have to feel anymore. I'll become numb to everything I'd experience in my life. Like Andrew Largeman. Except I want this for my own good. Because in the end everyone ends up alone. Isaac Slade said this on one of his songs and I knew what he meant from that. This new year will be great. I'll get car, my camera, go to college, have my own room, meet new people, go to shows. I get paid Thursday. I still don't know what to get my friend for secret santa. I wish I was like some people who don't have to work to get what they want. I hate that it's so easy for them. December is going good. Now I think I'll go listen to bright eyes and fall asleep with the window open. It's raining outside