when all the city lights blind your eyes tonight

are you feeling better?

I love seeing my Mom happy. I don't know. There are days where I see her so down and angry and it makes me upset. School is actually going pretty good. Its moving by real fast but then I forget about time until it slaps me back on the head again. Sometimes I sit in class and read all of the inspirational posters the Teachers put up on their walls. Believe it or not but they make me think. You know when the first day school starts and the teachers make you stand up and introduce your self in front of everybody? I went through it seven times that day. "My name is Jeannette and my favorite thing in the world at the moment, is being seventeen." at least its what I wanted to say. January is coming up, it makes me feel a wreck thinking about it. Usually, I get happy when my birthday is around the corner but not this year. Its different this year.

And then it's like i can't hold on

I've been listening to a lot of Morrissey on my way to school. I think its nice for the drive. and in front of a sunrise. I think thats the best part of my mornings. I wish I had something nice to write about. I will forget august. and I won't remember anything that happened this month. and maybe the next after that. I don't want it to be that way.

Will you lay here with me and feel it?

i love everything about this video.
watch it for mee

urgent like the first day of May

today will be the last day of my summer high school vacation ever. Its been freaking me out all day. I didn't spend it like i pictured it in my head. but I thought of how nice I'd see my best friend in the middle of the morning today. too bad I wasn't at home. I'm gonna have my own room soon. We're moving out. Its gonna be dark purple. I can't wait. and its gonna smell like pumpkin spice when you walk in. I can finally invite friends over. ah. I have to go get ready for school tomorrow. I don't know what I'm gonna wear. probably jeans and a band t-shirt. duh and I need to decorate my binder for this year. I'm so bummed out that summer is over. but it was nice. I grew as a person

You take your moment and I’ll take mine

Its senior year and were all down with getting out of this old town.

I will keep the bad things from you

he wants to walk half way from work to meet me today. but I don't know if I can. My mom came home just a few minutes ago. so I don't think it'll work. Besides he could be doing better things on his lunch break then just seeing me. He really wants me to visit him but I don't have a ride. He told me to take a taxi. lol It was very sweet. but! he has a girlfriend. its a big deal for me. He doesn't know what to do. but whatever, I'm not going to wait forever. School starts in exactly one week from today. I haven't even gone school shopping. but I don't care. I get to see my friends and meet new people.

good day

I think I like today
I think it's good
Its something I can't get my head around

i love catching up with old friends.

old old friends. Its a good feeling. It brings me back MEMORIES.

and I look high for yesterday

high and low for you and I.


today was a good day.
I couldn't stop cheesing the entire day.
It was nice.
I can only hope tomorrow is much better.

He has the most beautiful eyes.. :D
I've watched the notebook everyday so far this week.
Call me crazy.
I'm finding new ways to fill up these spaces!
I work so much this week. But I'm happy about it.
There's so many shirts I want to order online
and vinyls. I have to go south before the summer is overr.
I just have too.
me and ash are talking again.
her grandma hates me for no apparent reason but I'm ok with that.
kind of. It just makes me mad.
she did things that I'm upset about but I told her I won't judge her for them.
I care about her a lot.
I've been jamming Greg laswell and Holiday Parade obsessively on my zune.
and Ben Gibbard. Oh how I wish we can get married one day.
anna isn't really talking to me like she used to in June.
I guess things get old. =/
I wish I was good enough.

i can't wait for autumn/winter.

=))

I have a good feeling about him. He's very sincere and a gentlemen and cutee. We've been talking now. I'm excited. He plays drums and is in a band and yeah adjnhgjkabg. Its just a crush. Nothing serious but he's nice. I get to see him today.

suppose I never ever saw you

Lyrics | Strokes, The - Reptillia (correct) lyrics

just go. roll the windows down

I have a new obsession. I love when these kind of things come around. It gives me something to look forward to. Its like I found them and they found me.







i have left over pizza. music and pizza and halo sounds nice for me.

that's how i lost the quiet side of me

i saw this Dove commercial and it was about self esteem. I feel under pressure. I don't want to change for anyone. I need to work on my self esteem.

the end has no end

Its like when you try your hardest and you don't get anywhere. that's exactly what its like for me. and I dont know what the problem is. Or maybe I have my mind set to something I'm still looking for. and I don't know what that is. I have noo idea. I think I haven't found it yet. and I guess I just have to keep digging deeper to get where I'm trying to go. I need to find something that makes me happy. I have. but I'm nowhere near it at this point. not anymore. I dont want a boyfriend. If thats what you have in mind. I need to find someone I can trust forever. I need that right now. I want some kind of figure in my life I can depend on. forever is such a pretty word. what about me? do you care about mee? geez, the strokes gives me heartache. but I like it. I see things clearer. and it makes me sad. this summer was beautiful in ways I can't even begin to start explaining. I want to go back to that time. I don't want to sit here and let the hours pass and dream. I don't want that. but everytime I reach out my hand is pushed away. I'm tired of reaching out. I need to be my own best friend. I think thats what this is. i feel weak right now. weaker than ever. tell me anything, I can't hear you. I'll try but it won't happen. yeah this really sucks right now. I need my headphones. I'm sick of hearing from one ear. I want to go somewhere far and deep where no one can find me and just find myself and scream my lungs out. I need to do it. go listen to the end has no end while driving. its a perfect song

these are my heart songs

I wasn't lying when I said I've been playing a lot of halo and listening to Brand New a lot lately. Its the best thing in the world. lol oh and weezer and ava will be on tour together. they'll be around in October. =)

this is the first song for your mixtape

I've been playing a lot of Halo 3 and listening to Brand New lately. I'm excited for school to start.