its easy if you try

I almost forgot how much I love John Lennon. I've been watching all his documentaries saved on my dvr. all day. I could've been hanging out with anna but I guess she has other things going on. she thinks I'm angry at her

I work tomorrow. its depressing but at least I earn money. no film today, i'm upset. I don't even know if San Fran is going to happen. I think my parents are ok with it but I honestly dont think its gonna happen. August 6th will be here and it'll go by just like any other day.
i need to stop making plans. I dont want to get so ahead of myself especially when it isn't ever going to happen. i hope she goes so I can go. I don't think she realizes how much i love hanging out with her. it makes me tear up

i shouldn't force things. it looks bad on my part