it doesn't feel like it. and it feels like i haven't gotten anywhere. i feel melancholy. i'm spending my whole night listening to conor's sad beautiful voice and then going to sleep early. because i don't have anything better to do. idk. its funny. because i feel that time is moving to fast now. and i miss everything about feb, jan, dec, nov, oct, JLY and i don't know whats gonna happen in april. or how will it be like. but i hope that when i read back to this i can just smile at what i had to say. not that i had the worst month ever. i'm with a boy that i'm amazed by in just one month. i like him and he likes me. and we're crazy about eachother. but then theres stuff that just holds us back. like old girlfriends. and old feelings. old old old
and it breaks my heart
because i don't want to get hurt
no one likes to get hurt
no one likes to get their heart broken.
no one likes to cry
i don't want to be that person that has to go through every second/moment of it
i don't know whats really bothering me. if its him or school or just plain old missing stuff you can never get back. time =(
why am i acting this way? why is that i'm becoming depressed. i'm happy.
i really am. next tuesday i get to see say anything. I'D WALK THROUGH HELL FOR YOU
i want something to live for.
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