last day of march?

it doesn't feel like it. and it feels like i haven't gotten anywhere. i feel melancholy. i'm spending my whole night listening to conor's sad beautiful voice and then going to sleep early. because i don't have anything better to do. idk. its funny. because i feel that time is moving to fast now. and i miss everything about feb, jan, dec, nov, oct, JLY and i don't know whats gonna happen in april. or how will it be like. but i hope that when i read back to this i can just smile at what i had to say. not that i had the worst month ever. i'm with a boy that i'm amazed by in just one month. i like him and he likes me. and we're crazy about eachother. but then theres stuff that just holds us back. like old girlfriends. and old feelings. old old old

and it breaks my heart
because i don't want to get hurt
no one likes to get hurt
no one likes to get their heart broken.
no one likes to cry

i don't want to be that person that has to go through every second/moment of it
i don't know whats really bothering me. if its him or school or just plain old missing stuff you can never get back. time =(

why am i acting this way? why is that i'm becoming depressed. i'm happy.
i really am. next tuesday i get to see say anything. I'D WALK THROUGH HELL FOR YOU

i want something to live for.

And I'd stand there, like a soldier, with my foot upon his chest

With my grin spread, and my arms out, in my bloodstained Sunday's best,
&you'd hold me, I'd remind you who you are under their shell.

your moving to fast for me

& I can't keep up with you

this makes me smile

9/2/07
i took a few pictures on
rody's birthday, here's my favs

but of course, he doesn't have his long hair anymore. =(

=)

The Damnwells released Bastard of Midnight on myspace in October

I'm so happy I could...

Do do dodo
Do do dodo
Do do dodo
Do do dodo
Do do dodo
Do do dodo
Do do dodo
Do do do do


Tonight I'm gonna take a test to grow up
So I'm sorry for the things I've done to everyone
It's not your face I can't tell
But I try to be this way
It's my own

I smell so good right now

Julia bought me some pumkin spice lotion and its the best thing ever. I can't stop smelling myself lol. Augustana release tour dates and Houston was a chosen one. I'm so happy right now. There coming June 3rd. Presale starts on the 21st so I'm stealing my moms credit card :p I CAN'T WAIT. the last time they came was in October. I miss october. Lots of lovely memories happened in October of 2007.

besides that Nate from Meese left me a myspace comment telling me that I just might be the best fan they have. I'm so honored. YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW

so thats that. I just want some whataburger. My brother was called in for an interview so my mom and him are gone and i'm starving. so i have 5 dollars in my hand. I'm ready to head out to buy myself a burger.

now that its june we'll sleep out in the garden

ah last nightt

i couldn't go to sleep that night

at the show i met this kid named Kenneth who happened to be some 17 year old that worked for the venue and we talked a lot.
like about how many shows he was able to move stuff around for and got paid like 95 bucks for a day (foo fighters, warp tour, three days grace, to name a few) meaning he did BIG showss
so he killed about 30-40 mins and kept going on and on about his life and blink which was really interesting and i laughed and laughed at his funny jokes.
by the way i was FIRST in line and the show was sold out so yeah sososo many people in line behind me. I felt like a leader.
but i got in it with some chiks. just because you get meet&greet passes does NOT mean skipping me. and 1 million of others behind me.
so yeah, ask my brother and the girls behind me. they'll tell you HAH!
i ran in first. just like i planned.

and i got where i wanted to be. and it was cold inside so it was very nice because i was out in the sun all day waiting for the show to start.
Sara bareilles climbed up these stairs that led to the red room and she saw me and only me because no one on her side could see the 354646 people behind me. and she smiled and said "hii" hahaha
and i gasped and turned around and told the girls behind me "OMG sara just smiled at me and said hi" hahaha
and cary brothers went up too and he smiled (people behind me thought he was a band, soo stupid)
and then greg laswell went up the stairs and smiled to mee hahaha
its the price you pay when waiting so early for a show
but no joshua or ingrid. =(
i so know they like eachother
he kissed her onstage
but on the cheek
if you know joshua
and you know ingrid
then we know they like each other
=)

their so lovely

INGRID WAS HILARIOUS !!!
that whole night in between her songs
we laughed our asses off

"PLAY SOME MUSIC BITCH"
hahaha
you had to been there

and i can't believe she covered RADIOHEAD
i got like half the song =/
i realized she was covering them when she started the chorus
but I'm a creeeeep
i'm a wierdoooooo


and we shouted out to joshua radin to play
one of his old songs

and we alll yelled closer hahaha =))
and he was like "ok."
ah it was nicee

theres so many things that happened
but i can't think of them right now
i just remember being sad most of the time when greg singed.
he sung about Seattle and san fran

and he told us sad stories
and his grandma coming to him in a dream for him to sing happy things
he was so amazing
like hands down, awesome!

oh and omg i met joshua
at the merch table after the show
he was so nice to me
and he took our picture
and i felt his scruffy beard on my cheek
but that was the first time we took the picture (which i'm not putting up because its weird looking)

and then the second one came out OK
hah i love joshua

I had that dream again

I'm gonna send a little rain to pour down on you
Rain that makes the flowers bloom
Rain to leave you all alone
but keep eyelashes falling
And wishes washed away

eh.

I want tomorrow to be here so bad.
I'm gonna try to make it front row. I will make it front row.

rainy tuesdays

I know,
I feel the same as you

Meese @ Twist in Shout in Denver

02.29.08!

I remember the fray did an in-store performance at that same place. and it was so awesome that meese was in that same store three years later! and all i kept thinking about was meese's show that only lasted around 30 mins and how i would wish that i was there and not here. Melissa, Chandra, and Becky did such a lovely thing for me last night when they were there.(There amazing people) They got the guys to hold up a sign with my name on it. i can't stop looking at the picture, i love it so much. WOOOO for being spiritually there! hahaha wow. i love meese and i can't wait til they visit me in Texas. seriously

love always, jeannette