The flower of the Alps told the seashell: “You’re shining”
The seashell told the sea: “You echo”
The sea told the boat: “You’re shuddering”
The boat told the fire: “You’re glowing brightly”
The fire told me: “I glow less brightly than her eyes”
The boat told me: “I shudder less than your heart does when she appears”
The sea told me: “I echo less than her name does in your love-making”
The seashell told me: “I shine less brightly than the phosphorus of desire in your hollow dream”
The flower of the Alps told me: “She’s beautiful”
I said: “She’s beautiful, so beautiful, she moves me

Ben Wysocki noticed my Instagram today. That is all.

I think the worst part of today was finding out Walgreens doesn't develop 35mm film instantly anymore. I'm losing all hope.

bastard of midnight

i'm having this moment where everything is moving so fast and i just want to freeze time because i'm not ready to move forward. i feel stuck and i don't feel like I should and i'm lost and confused and alone and there's nothing holding me together. I feel like i've lost a limb and it's so hard to do this. i've neglected so many things and i have changed so much but there's a part of me that doesn't want to grow up. and even though i fucked everything up, i have so much hope inside of me. hope that everything is going to get better and that i'm not always going to feel this emotional about people leaving and always being let down. i don't know what happened to me. i used to stand up tall all by myself and i have forgotten to remind myself for that. i wish i had someone to tell me everything is going to be ok.

Tomorrow I turn 22. I am so happy that I am finally getting older. That's how I feel hah :)

Isn't it strange how things can change you?

4 years ago today. I wish so bad I could wake up and relive that moment.

Why do nice people choose the wrong people to date?

I'm sorry but I kinda already have this thing planned for my birthday.

Yesterday I help put up the Christmas tree and lights on the house. It was a good day. and today my boss calls me and says I don't have to go to work and i'm going to pick up my ultra flip from craigslist for 60 bucks and i'm so excited because i miss recording moments on video and it will be perfect for new years. I don't want to say it just yet but I hope this trip happens. it will be my first real roadtrip out of the state. and I want it to be perfect. the other day I was watching taylor swift on netflix and the place she came from and how i kept seeing this state everywhere. it's a sign. :)