“Once in a life, if a person chooses to go through these things, then maybe the act of writing them down could be a gift, so that others might know that should they suffer their romances or their love of things, they’re not alone.”

- Ryan Adams

Currently reading The Fountainhead starting tonight. (:

Since november, it's been raining.

I woke up understated

A simple feeling, aimed at you
And my love's gone underrated
A simple feeling, aimed at you

And it took me ages to figure out what I was supposed to know
All the sordid details of your final blow by blow

This is a hymn for you, this is a song for you... (x9)

that picture by the amazing artist Zach Johnson

and this cover by Regina Spektor.







5HRS and 30 mins if I travel to OK to see The Fray. I gotta make this work

omg

You haunt my dreams like the sweet refrain of my favorite song.

I want to run away and not look back. I want to have no plans except to keep going. I want to meet strange new people and have conversations that change me. I watched The Holiday today. My favorite part was when Graham admits to Amanda that he's a major weeper. Kinda like me. "A good book, a great film, a birthday card, I weep." haha. I think I look nice in black. I've been listening to Ray LaMontagne. I'm picking out a tripod tomorrow for my canon. I didn't tell you about my dreams. I keep having these dreams of you and I wake myself out of them. Kinda like when I stop myself from seeing you. Don't ever let me leave you. I want to dance. I want to be spun in circles and be carried away. I love you Dirty Dancing. I want to feel wind blow me away. I want Ray on my record player. I want to be swooned. at all times. I can't wait for Summer.

alone and I'm in between...

Sometimes I don't know if I should hate myself for always spending every second trying to bring myself back to those days. I just feel so numb all of a sudden. I don't want to be like everyone else. Someone made me a mix cd so I'm gonna take a bike ride to the woods and listen to that. I haven't listened to any of those songs that have significantly changed me. Maybe that's why I don't feel like myself. I am nineteen years old. nineteen. I don't believe it. I still have a lot to learn and I don't want to be sorry about that. I can't believe May is almost here either.

we're only taking turns.

I haven't heard a thing you've said
In at least a couple hundred days
What'd you say?