She doesn't get it It's all before she was born

Today is my one month anniversary since I last saw The Fray in Dallas.
I haven't stopped thinking about that day since it happened. Which is mental, I agree.
I just can't understand how someone could get over a day like January 26, 2009 so easily.
I also can't believe that it's been one month! Time goes by so fast.

Check this out
http://news.aol.com/article/eye-of-god/360730

I fell asleep with a smile on

I remember Citywide Rodeo coming up on my mix cd. I was returning home from seeing The Fray in Dallas, the beginning of a long drive. I remember lying on my back side in the back seat looking up at the tinted window watching the stars, thinking about all that happened that day. I got the same exact feeling I had felt earlier when I saw the guys for the first time in a long time. Tucked just underneath my rib cage. It was the first time too in a long time that I didn't listen to that song. I even almost forgot how perfect it sounded. Those words were just what I needed that night. I thought it was the greatest way to end January 26, 2009. So the song played and the stars? Couldn't have shined any brighter.

itunes shuffle

How does the world see you?
Look after you - The Fray (haha :))

Will I have a happy life?
7 shades of Black - The Smashing Pumpkins

What do my friends really think of me?
Harrowdown Hill - Thom Yorke (Best SONG)

Do people secretly lust after me?
Rain King - Sonic Youth

How can I make myself happy?
Sweet Darlin' - She & Him

What should I do with my life?
Fever - Takka Takka

Will I ever have children?
Bubble Toes - Jack Johnson

What is some good advice for me?
Odalisque - The Decemberists

How will I be remembered?
Rocket - The Smashing Pumpkins

What is my signature dancing song?
Everyday Stranger - Sara Bareiiles

What do I think my current theme song is?
Ever So Sweet - The Early November

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Milk And Money - The Fratellis

What song will play at my funeral?
This ruined Puzzle - Dashboard Confessional

What type of men/women do you like?
Don't know when but a day gonna come - Bright Eyes <3

What is my day going to be like?
West Coast Friendship - Owl City




re-reading 1984.
dreaming about flying.
dyeing my hair back to normal.
teaching lizzy to walk on a leash.
watching life pass me by.
craving strawberry and banana smoothies.
thinking hard about spring break and summer.
trying hard to fit in with the loud people.
feeling nostalgic of academy. (once 2nd home and favorite job)
I miss it there so much. I miss my manager Robert and just all the people I got so close with. Academy was my 2nd home believe it or not
I deserved to get fired.
They gave me so many breaks. (chances)

ben was "killing the vibe" hahaha! *sigh* that was a great night ")

citywide rodeo

Citywide rodeo, you set on the stage
Where all the clowns will go when they feel their age

I know that you think you're not good for anything
The world makes you feel so small
Get on your wooden horse
This is a ride, not a fight
No need to save face, say goodnight, Grace
"Good night, Grace."

There's dust on the stadium seats, there's dust in your hair
You wonder how fast you'll go when you hit the air

And oh, isn't it strange how things can change you?
And oh, isn't it plain that some things unname you
So don't ask anybody else.

Citywide rodeo, step into your car
Look up at the indigo and pick out your star.

Did your faithful chauffeur just disappear?

What a lonesome feeling
To be waiting around
Like some washed up actress
In a Tinseltown



DAN LAYUS SOLO SHOW IN HOUSTON, TEXAS. IN MARCH


MY HANDS ARE SHAKING..................I don't know how to handle this. I'm just gonna take deep breaths to keep calm.


Spring is starting to reappear in front of my eyes. The trees are lovelyy :)
I really like the month of March. I think spring will be great this year.

But I've never been this scared before

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MihU0Kw8Okg


watch this video I made?? I think you would like it maybe. It rained that evening on V-day. I used Where The Story Ends (Acoustic) and I think the song fits the mood pretty nicely, what do you think?

Friday, July 13 2007

yeah..hah. ")
The Fray announced an official summer tour with Jack's Mannequin todayy.
and I have a strong desire to know as much as I can about Poseidon.
There's suppose to be a thunderstorm tomorrow on V-day.
I want to take Polaroids of Rachel at this tiny beach near our house but I don't know now.
I'm still excited about the announcement. The first person I thought about was Julia and how perfect it would be for her to see Andrew and The Fray together. I know she wants it to happen badly. I miss my phone. I need stamps. I keep forgetting I'm eighteen. I'm still so mad at lizzy for chewing on my delux Fray album. It looks horrible :( I listened to Fair Fight on repeat last night and the fray live @ Kidd Kraddick. That interview makes me laugh everytime. The Fray's self title album is the most precious thing I have ever heard. and God I mean it.


"Sometimes I feel like there's a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn.
I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean."

"I'm gonna love you again when I hear you sing"

That's this video by the way

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=018h-PXSWFE