June 30, 2014

I still can't let go

I was headed home after the most epic trip of my life. I was so torn that it was ending and the only song that was playing in my head were the lyrics to Boyz II Men, "End Of The Road" I was sitting in the back of the car listening to the song and I was looking out to the canyons and back to Liz and silently crying and just trying to freeze that moment in my head because I wasn't ready to move on. After about an hour of driving we entered Yucca Valley and that was when I saw this beautiful mural. I can't tell you how amazing it made me feel.

Oh man another moment I had on the road was reading Johnny Cash's the autobiography and on the chapter "The Road" he talks about "Walk The Line" and how he got the inspiration to the melody and says he put on a barbarian tape and started to hear some sort of spooky church music and realized that the tape had gotten turned around and realized he was listening to it backwards. Well on that last day of our trip (a little bit after I saw "The End" mural) I played "Hold My Hand" by The Fray on my iphone and somehow it started playing it in reverse and at first it freaked me out because it sounded so haunting like johnny described it. I was sort of lost to what was happening and I even tested other songs like "Hurricane" and it was doing the same thing. All I could think about was "Walk The Line"

I really can't wait to start working on my playlist of all the songs that reminded me of that trip. Hopefully soon. Goodbye for now.

June 27, 2014

"Don't date a girl who travels"



She’s the one with the messy unkempt hair colored by the sun. Her skin is now far from fair like it once was. Not even sun kissed. It’s burnt with multiple tan lines, wounds and bites here and there. But for every flaw on her skin, she has an interesting story to tell. Don’t date a girl who travels. She is hard to please. The usual dinner-movie date at the mall will suck the life out of her. Her soul craves for new experiences and adventures. She will be unimpressed with your new car and your expensive watch. She would rather climb a rock or jump out of an airplane than hear you brag about it. Don’t date a girl who travels because she will bug you to book a flight every time there’s an airline seat sale. She wont party at Republiq. And she will never pay over $100 for Avicii because she knows that one weekend of clubbing is equivalent to one week somewhere far more exciting. Chances are, she can’t hold a steady job. Or she’s probably daydreaming about quitting. She doesn’t want to keep working her ass off for someone else’s dream. She has her own and is working towards it. She is a freelancer. She makes money from designing, writing, photography or something that requires creativity and imagination. Don’t waste her time complaining about your boring job. Don’t date a girl who travels. She might have wasted her college degree and switched careers entirely. She is now a dive instructor or a yoga teacher. She’s not sure when the next paycheck is coming. But she doesn’t work like a robot all day, she goes out and takes what life has to offer and challenges you to do the same. Don’t date a girl who travels for she has chosen a life of uncertainty. She doesn’t have a plan or a permanent address. She goes with the flow and follows her heart. She dances to the beat of her own drum. She doesn’t wear a watch. Her days are ruled by the sun and the moon. When the waves are calling, life stops and she will be oblivious to everything else for a moment. But she has learned that the most important thing in life isn’t surfing. Don’t date a girl who travels as she tends to speak her mind. She will never try to impress your parents or friends. She knows respect, but isn’t afraid to hold a debate about global issues or social responsibility. She will never need you. She knows how to pitch a tent and screw her own fins without your help. She cooks well and doesn’t need you to pay for her meals. She is too independent and wont care whether you travel with her or not. She will forget to check in with you when she arrives at her destination. She’s busy living in the present. She talks to strangers. She will meet many interesting, like-minded people from around the world who share her passion and dreams. She will be bored with you. So never date a girl who travels unless you can keep up with her. And if you unintentionally fall in love with one, don’t you dare keep her. Let her go"

June 2, 2014

Misguided by the 405

Do you know that feeling of something really great about to happen but you still feel like it isn't real? Because of how many times you've told yourself you would make this come true and now it's here and you don't feel as excited as you thought you'd be. As if something was missing. I can't stop thinking about this trip. In two days I will be picking up Liz in an airport and I will meet her for the first time and it will be the greatest escape in the whole world. She's really important to me and I hope this trip will be everything I could ever imagine. I've made about 15 mixtapes for the road. I'm really freaking out.

April 24, 2014

Follow the signs back to you

I forgot to say April Fool's for that romantic post there. There is no doode. Probably won't be for a long time ha! I did leave out some stuff from this month. like when I went to go see the arcade fire i found one of their merch shirts on the ground and when Win Butler invited us to pit and also i accidently got an extra pack of film from the film gods and my luck has completely turned around. I met Dan Layus a couple nights ago. Couldn't really act normal around him so I just asked him to sign my CD. It's incredible how far he's gone and i'm just so happy that he's still around. I can't stop listening to his new album which i really do think is gold. Kevin Devine was phenomenal so I won't be over that in forever. I get to see Ben Kweller next Saturday and it's all happening so fast. I really am feeling overwhelmed. So much beautiful music flowing around me..2014 is going to be my year.

April 6, 2014

Today

"Human feelings is like the mighty rivers that bless the earth: it does not wait for beauty it flows with risistless force and brings beauty with it."
Those would've been my last words today. I can't tell you how awful it felt running for my life. I'm here replaying the final moment over and over in my head and it is unbearable. I went on a last minute adventure with one of my friends to visit the only trestles I knew of and as we were walking down the tracks we heard the train coming. We were in the middle of the the tracks with no open space and we saw headlights in the distance. With only seconds to run for cover, I started to run back instead of forward. My friend had to yell at me to go the other way and I almost didn't trust him. We must've ran a thousand steps until we found a way to slid under. The train must've been going at least 25mph. I am still shaken up. I almost died today. I just laid there on the rocks and watched the train pass. You know that part when someone says their life flashed before their eyes? I experienced that feeling today. We started to walk back to the car and I almost threw up. I was drinking a skinny vanilla latte and reciting George Eliot on the back of my starbucks cup with my sharpie and a view of the Bevil Jarrel bridge and then that happened. The funniest thing happened once we got in the car, I had my friend play a mix cd of The Fray and "Tryin' To Throw Your Arms Around The World" started to play and we just started laughing.

ps. It's 9pm and I can still see the sun.

April 1, 2014

even lucky man has a bad day and pretty girl has a scar.

and his gave me his denim jacket. he's my wild dream come true.

I went on a date today. There is so much potential between us. He makes me laugh and that is such a turn on for me. OMG I'm gonna cry if I don't see him again. He makes me want to paint on canvases using just my fingers. And his breath smells really really good all the time. I feel like if i don't do something incredible to sweep him away i might lose him to another. But the temptation is so hard. Gotta keep my focus on him. I feel like he understands me. I can't wait to see him Saturday. He wants to take me on a canoe ride and feed me goldfishes. I have a little surprise for him. I hope he doesn't think i'm weird after I give it to him. It's just he really does paint a picture for me every time i look into his eyes. I haven't felt this bond in so long...