i feel it coming back

I can't think straight. I was waiting for something to give me a push to write down how I've been feeling this past week. I'm listening to a new song of The Fray, it's called 500,000 acres and this just about did it for me. I was having a pretty shitty week. I didn't get their new album until today. and I was upset until i realized it was exactly one month after my birthday and i guess it triggered something in me to be thankful for. i don't know this probably doesn't make sense but when i had it my hands all i kept saying was finally finally finally and now i'm listening to these songs and my head is in a whirlwind. "i don't want to miss a thing" "and these words on this album is speaking to me on some many levels. i'm a mess. "will i ever know you, or the waves?"

Blue and Black

During my birthday weekend I met a guy that flew from California to be in a wedding at the Hotel Galvez in Galveston, Tx. The whole reason I was staying at the hotel was to experience the ghost bride in my hotel room who hung herself waiting for her love to come back to her. I do want to say it was an unforgettable night. Despite some bullshit I had to deal with from a certain person, everything that happened was unpredictable. I never saw any of it coming. I definitely needed that one magical person to make my night unforgettable. Just his company made it worthwhile. And like all beautiful things, he's gone and I'm left with the loveliest memory. I can't believe it's going to be a year since I have been single. I can't say I am happy about it, since it's been a long time. But I do feel like I am growing up to be a better person and I want people to notice that. The entire year alone I have accomplished so much. I stopped all the bullshit partying and got back to college. I lost 25 pounds and my lifestyle has changed completely. I have never been more focused on myself in my entire 23 years of life. I still try and go on adventures at least once a month. The discovery of new places and people and music and art still inspire me more than ever. The itch to photograph every moment has been overwhelming and I wish I could share my joy with the world lol. :) My next adventure will be Wimberly, TX. I'll be going backpacking on the hills and the infamous, "Devil's backbone" maybe get an experience in. It's such a thrill what it does for me. It's crazy feeling like you are a part of another world. It is an escape. Anyway, after that, I'll return to New Orleans for Fat Tuesday and take everything in. It's amazing what being in a different city does to you.