If you see these tears fill in my eyes
It's just the wind that makes me cry
If you could feel this pain inside
It's from the drinks we drank last night

I've been emotional lately. It's the kind of emotion you hide so people don't see how you're feeling. and it isn't over major things revolving my life, it's more like tearing up over small casualties and feeling all of that inside of me and seeing it in everyone and playing out certain kinds of scenes in my head. It's hard to be tough when I have so much weakness in me. So i've been walking around with this fake ego and trying so hard not to crack. i'm just trying to be someone and maybe someone will actually find me normal. I can't believe that at 22 years old I'd act this way but I can't change who I am. I want to fast forward time, honestly I do. IDK because then I wouldn't want to miss out on the good stuff like, getting somewhere in Life. Do I want wrinkles just yet or saggy breasts and menopause and all the other things that come with getting old, because I can't get enough of hearing it from them. I'm scared.