Yesterday I help put up the Christmas tree and lights on the house. It was a good day. and today my boss calls me and says I don't have to go to work and i'm going to pick up my ultra flip from craigslist for 60 bucks and i'm so excited because i miss recording moments on video and it will be perfect for new years. I don't want to say it just yet but I hope this trip happens. it will be my first real roadtrip out of the state. and I want it to be perfect. the other day I was watching taylor swift on netflix and the place she came from and how i kept seeing this state everywhere. it's a sign. :)

i just ran into this blog. holy cow it was years ago.

http://autumnlovesrain.tumblr.com/

 It's Thanksgiving break and families are starting to to put Christmas lights up. I can't wait to see this town light up. I notice people are so much friendlier this time of the year. I just wish things were always this peaceful but I know bad things are happening across the country that can't be controlled. Right now I'm listening to The Fray live in Sydney 06 and omh is making me smile. My boss Gail told me on her way to work this morning she kept thinking how blessed she is to have me and the other girls on the team. I felt bad because I kept talking out loud how I was looking for a second job the day before. I know I was going to regret certain things but shit happens. I'm just glad I have time for myself again.

Adventurous is driving 800 miles to see your favorite band on New Year's Eve.

for you

You inspire me more than anything on this earth. Everything I do is with your help and you push me to shine brighter and never let the spark go out. I never thought I would have someone like you to push me but I do and I am so thankful for you. Please don't ever think I will not be there for you. I am forever haunted by your ghost. I'm not a poet but if I could write the sweetest words and make them sound beautiful as how you do what you do then I would but I hope this is enough. I'm going a little crazy here. The winter is brewing in so fast and Christmas time will be here soon. I don't know what's going to happen but I know I'll be happy. I'm not going to let anything in the way from keeping me getting stuck. I'm so over that fucking feeling. Let's get lost in this madness we call life.

I am just so happy. Today is my mom's birthday and the counting crows show and I woke up and my picture was explored on flickr and Julia's mixtape came in the mail. Ah can this day get any better :)

tomorrow I'm off and I get to go and take pictures of my cousin and it's suppose to be portraits and this will be my first time actually having to take them instead of spontaneously and i'm excited. Eventhough I'm a little upset that I won't go to work tomorrow but I'm still so happy that I get to take pictures of someone who actually wants there picture taken because she's turning 15 and her cousin which is her mom wants to go to the woodlands and i haven't been back there since September  i'm kinda stressing over my photographs lately. i think i really need to be inspired. I was looking at a blog with a bunch of film photography and it really opened my mind up and now I have many ideas. i'm so glad I got my charger back. 2 ish more months and I will have my canon 5d. (I pray)

Yesterday was by far the funniest night I've had in a long time. It was rach's birthday so we all decided to go eat at Casa Ole. It was eight of us and well pretty much the joke was on me. We ordered our drinks and everybody at the table was cracking up. Good people you know? When our drinks finally got there, the gentlemen came and decided he was going to shake our own drinks with the shaker. First up was Rachel but she was smart enough to say she wanted to do it herself. Then it was me. So as he's shaking my drink and pouring it in the glass, the top of the shaker falls into my drink and splashes all over my face and my legs and all I could do was laugh. And the first thing I say is do I get a discount and everyone's laughing at what I'm saying and I'm laughing so hard that my eyes are starting to get watery. So the server apologizes and he's so nervous he takes the whole thing back and goes and makes me a new one. So as we're waiting me and another girl are talking and Rachel's sister's shaker top decides to pop into the air and land on the table and we're laughing at the fact that I don't know what mojitos are and how we should get it for free and the thing decides to go off while we're looking at each other across the table. So finally my drink arrives and it's perfect. Then we wait for our food and when it gets there and just when the server thinks everyone has there plates and asks how's everyone's food? I look down and everyone is staring at me and we start laughing uncontrollably because I'm the only one without my food. He forgot to write mine. So basically we got free mojitos. Then Rachel's sister starts inviting me and the other girl to some guys dia del Los muertos festival to play "asshole" and we agree. So when we got there there was a mariachi band playing and as soon as I walk in there backyard I see a bunch of statues and I had never seen anything like it. And everyone is staring at us like we're aliens. I think the only part I hated being there was when I saw a girl swinging a stray cat by there legs and throwing it across the fence. I had to get up and walk away. I was so upset. I don't know. Just pissed me off. I was ready to say something. And I know it wasn't the alcohol, I was really mad. I had to stop playing the game asshole because I was starting to feel a little sick. And the rules were stupid. Every time you hear the trumpet sound take a drink.

Listening to an old 90's mix waiting on my life to begin. I think I'm gonna be here for a while.


Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
And I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means
And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
ooh, ooh ooh
and I try, oh my god do I try
I try all the time, in this institution
And I pray, oh my god do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution