he had eyes bright enough to burn me, they reminded me of yours.

"You can't just sit there and put everybody's lives ahead of yours, and think that counts as love." -the perks of being a wallflower

SUNDAY BEST

Happy Sunday. Today I will visit downtown and I will listen to the pigeons chirp and watch the sunlight reflect off the buildings and see the "stoplights change their name from green to red to green again." and wonder about interesting people who walk among the streets and I'll sit around for a couple of hours until it's time to see Dan Layus with his guitar and his wondrous voice, and no one else. I can't wait for today. It's chilly outside so I'll wear my boyfriend's cardigan. I don't know if I should count this show as number five. Dan Layus is the lead singer of Augustana..idk. I'm just so happy he came back and he chose Houston for this moment. I wonder if his wifey will be there and little girl. All of this is so exciting. I can not wait for tonight

And the world maybe be long for you, but he'll never belong to you.

But on a motorbike, when all the city lights blind your eyes, are you feeling better now?

falling in your eyes.

Oh my God, this hurts like hell
I had that dream again where
I was lost for good in outer space
Tell me, doctor, how to shake
A waking nightmare that is only
Worse when I am sleeping

Kill the messenger
I swear it's not me
It's just someone I used to know
And get to church cause you're a good girl
And he never told you that
And all I need from you
Could be the thing that
Leaves us both up here forever
I'm gonna send a little rain your way
I'm gonna send a little rain...

It's not so easy, caving in
I walked by your apartment twice today
While you were gone at work
And all the colors got so down
It's not as cold out here
But come quick, I am losing feeling

Kill the messenger
I swear it's not me
It's just someone I used to know
And get to church cause you're a good girl
And he never told you that
And all I need from you
Could be the thing that
Leaves us both up here forever
I'm gonna send a little rain your way
I'm gonna send a little rain, send a little rain

I'm gonna send a little rain to pour down on you
Rain that makes the flowers bloom
Rain to leave you all alone
That keeps eyelashes falling
And wishes washed away

Kill the messenger
I swear it's not me
It's just someone I used to know
And get to church cause you're a good girl
And he never told you that
And all I need from you
Could be the thing that
Leaves us both up here forever
I'm gonna send a little rain your way
I'm gonna send a little rain...
I'm gonna send a little rain your way

So I said, "lets forget these days and just try to build some solid ground.
Maybe someday we could stand straight up with our faces in the wind
and scream to the world."
We were at some boating dock oh somewhere at the waterfront staring out across the channel-
a steamer blared its horn
and I wished I could say everything right like do you want to go for a ride?
I looked to your face and saw the sun reflecting off your skin and I breathed in water smells-
the skyline filled with shipping yards and factories had me dreaming of waking up-
am I dreaming? is this really me? because I've never felt so not lonely
and if this could be real right now
then everyday for the rest of my life I will search for moments full of you
but let's hope tomorrow won't cave in 'cause I'm looking for someone to change me
and you make me feel so tall I always want to be this tall
'cause maybe I'll be original
and sometimes things you say just make me think in different ways so this is my way of saying
I could be the one who's dragged home at night away from all my hopeless dreams-
you and me will forge some future because we don't want to be waiting
for something right to go wrong.

God i miss those songs we used to sing talking like getting away would be the greatest thing well me, i got out, and you kept singing to me like that's really gonna to set this free

driving south

I've been listening to mellow french music when I'm here at home. SOY UN CABALLO? I think it's perfect if you feel like falling into a emotional abyss. Last night I saw ace enders for the 4th time. I made him laugh and he stared into my eyes when he asked us for requests. I told him I wanted him to sing "I want to hear you sad" and it seemed that this was what he was thinking*........staring...staring...idk jeannette, what if people don't like it?...* Then he said "i hear three requests, ever so sweet, i want to hear you sad, (still staring at me with that "ehhh i want to but no one will know it) and hair"...let's play ever so sweet and then i want to hear you sad" after ever so sweet he quickly moved on to the next song on his set that night. Ace, i forgive you. It was refreshing to talk to him. I sat down at this booth procrastinating in my head whether or not I should go up to him. I sat laughing at him posing in this one picture and he noticed and looked pass the person holding the camera to me. Then I saw ingrid talking with him so I creeped up around them pretending I was not there and ingrid was like"There she is! She's the one" and Ace was like "Nice to meet you, she's told me so much about you." and I'm like "Ingrid! You shouldn't have" and ace is laughing and then me and him move on to this whole conversation of how he's came back every three months. Because I asked him when he'd be back and he told me in june and i was like "GASPS" and he was like "you seem scared and shocked, what?" and i'm like "1..2..3..that's in three months.." "so your coming back in june and then august?" and he was like "nooo hahaha i'll be here in june"
It's actually september counting three months away from June. I am stupid. When we said goodbye and these fans were taking him a way for a picture he yelled out "see you in june!" to me and Ingrid and I was like "and august" and he laughed some more.
It reminded me so much of that other time we talked and it was so easy. :D

Theres so many other things that happened that night. Gay Blades were momentous on stage. And hilarious. The drummer looked like South from ~AUGUSTANA~ and we spent some time on his iphone because to him he had all the time. and we all laughed with the lead singer and he made fun of Dan Layus and his vest and he started improvising boston into this rap and he was dancing all over the place and some fans and I were just laughing our heads off. It was a fun night. I never stayed around at a venue for so long to just hang.

Tell them we're moving on

Satur-day, evening, night, was funnn! I went to see The Morning Light downtown and I met two awesome girls from Colorado. We talked mostly about Colorado bands and touring to different cities to see our favorite bands hah. It was such a coincidence. They came all the way from Denver to follow Ludo all over Texas!! One of them were named Anna and she was 32 years old and I never connected with someone older than me before that day. She made me laugh so hard and I think my best friend Rachel wasn't really moved by our conversations. Anna is an awesome human and I am so glad we met. We exchanged email address and parted ways that night. I hope I meet her in the near future. She was so fun being around with <3

I was kinda upset that The Morning Light only got to do a set of 5 songs that night. Bobby wore plaid that night and it made me happy. I didn't want to stay after the show to catch the band. I saw Andy, the bass player look over at me then this strange feeling came over me and I just left. Rachel decides to get LOST in downtown. We walked at least 5 miles away from where the venue was and we ended up at the Hard Rock Cafe right next to the Verizon Wireless Theater where outside I remember Isaac Slade walked into. That was the first time I ever layed eyes on him. A bird crapped on my head that night..I scraped my elbow running down this huge concrete alley. It was a strange night.

I belong to Someone. Someone is perfect and Someone makes me scared.

AJDANGJOHAUIAG

MEESE IS COMING TO HOUSTON WITH THE FRAY THIS SUMMER.

MEESE…THE FRAY…

MEESEEE..THE FRAY

THE FRAYYYYYY ….. MEEEEEEEEEEESE.

TOGETHER. ON THE SAME STAGE.

THE SAME STAGE WHERE I STOOD ON TWO SUMMERS AGO WITH THE FRAY DURING CABLE CAR.

THIS SUMMER

I GET TO SEE MEESE AND THE FRAY

AND JACK’S MANNEQUIN.

ALL ON THE SAME DAY.

I’M STILL IN SHOCK.