throught the dirt and wind

Ingrid told me that somewhere inbetween the mountains in a far away place in Mexico an Indian sitting "Indian style" sold it her bracelets. And she gave me two. "just because" and I like it alot. I haven't took them off since she tied them to my wrist. Packing to go to my dads this weekend. &I have to work. bleh bleh bleh. and my birthday is in 3 days. holy boom bang! I loved being sixteen. I'm gonna miss it so dearly. its such a pretty number.

love always,

jeannette

gone for now feels alot like gone for good

I could've died today. I was picked up early from school because I've been sick lately(Just a few headaches and mouth pain) but thats not why I could've died. Well maybe, but I had something else in mind. "Traffics like a pack of dogs". I don't think theres no other way to put it. Mom & I where jamming to some Jack Johnson in the car and she was driving and she made a wrong turn on a one way street. I kinda just sat there and froze because there was a stream of cars heading our way. Believe me, there were plenty of cars honking at us already. I kinda yelled at my mom to keep going because that was the only smart thing to do. I think she was scared too. bleh. Oh and I was sleeping in the back seat of the car because the music was making me sleepy and I was tired of being in the front and my mom pressed the break hard enough to make me roll and hit the bottom where your feet is suppose to be while I was sleeping. Oh my. I'm so glad I'm home. <3

love always,

jeannette

so,

theirs nothing in the fridge. and i'm hungry. i would rush out of the house at 2:30 in the morning to walk to walmart to get me something to eat but i have no dinero on me and I think my brother locked up his bike. I hate feeling poor. I think I'm going to get away from this old computer.. I watched an interview of the fray (Maybe for the 5th time already?) and Isaac Slade says "well it happened so gradually cause there would be like three people like the crazy fans that were on myspace all day long that would start singing back and that was wierd" ahaha. wow. goodnight.

love always,

jeannette

triying to write symphonies with a hand that quivers.

So theres this song.."Closer than we are" and Alex, lead singer of the damnwells sings it. &this song kinda owns my heart. You have to believe me, the song is that good. I've been obsessing over it for about what.. maybe 3 months? And recently, so many "damnwell" experiences has happened to me. One experience I've had not too long ago, was when Alex sent me a message thanking me for using an untitled live recording of his solo along with a slideshow of my clips and pictures. http://youtube.com/watch?v=018h-PXSWFE
Anyway, A friend of mine sent me a beautiful studio recording of "closer than we are" that I have used to add on my own myspace page.(I just had to throw that in there)&Its far more breathtaking then the live one I was drooling over. Alex posted a video of him on youtube of him doing a few acoustic sets, and if you take an easy guess, "Closer than we are" were one of them.

love always,

jeannette

kissed my dog and he got drunk

I was looking through my computer files and watched all kinds of videos. Like a few fray ones I taped back in Nov 06 but never posted them on my youtube page.(You could hear my awful singing, and I sound sad) One of isaac telling his waffle story and then started singing his "happiness" solo. &Another one of How to save a life. I have this new version of quicktime(which was given to me) &now I can convert my videos to formats like avi or mpeg4 . Woo! I have a bunch of videos from my augustana show this past Oct, them setting up the stage, the end of boston (&I mean the veryvery end) I remember the security guy was being a jerk, &kept asking me to stop recording. &I pretended I didn't hear him so I kept doing it, and told me if I did it again, I would have to leave the venue. So that whole night I was being watched by a security guard. "Only pictures" as he would say. Here's a clip of stars and boulevards by the one and only Augustana. Take notice of the horrible tech problems they had that night. And Jesus! the wait I had to go through just to hear them start, afterall, it was quite a lovely show. I kinda miss it.


love always,

jeannette

Mr. Postman do you have a letter for me?

So I went to this awesome place in the back of some park & woods with my brother and it was neat. I had to sit in the front of the bike while he peddled away along the side of a busy two way street with 3 lanes on each side. I saw a lot of people on their phones in cars. When we get close to the park we pass through this really long wavy street with lots and lots of trees everywhere and a old broke down ice cream truck to the far side, that for many months since I've moved here, always wanted to get near it(Don't ask). Did I mention I carried my polaroid with me? I took a picture of the wavy street. Yeah, I kinda left my battery charger for my digital camera @ my dad's place. I'm in a bad mood because of that. So we get there and we got off the bike and walk through the pack of trees and dead leaves on the ground. & we see this long long stream of water. And as I take polaroids, I lay em down on the yellow grass while my brother throws branches in the water. For no apparent reason. lol

up ahead was a bridge, that if we managed to get on top, would lead us back on the bsy street and take us home. we walk & walk until we finally get there. Then my brave brother decides to leave me and go on with out me while i'm still under the bridge. What an asshole. So what I did(because I can't climb unelevated grounds) I jump across the stream and land straight on my legs and chest leaving me filthy with mud all over my shoes, jacket, and jeans. Black mud covered my whole right shoe. and the polaroids were in my hand and so it got some of that on it too. I know, i'm a dumbass. And on top of that theirs like fifty cars driving near by! Yeah. we get on the bike and go home.



love always,

jeannette

am I really singing a love song?

So this afternoon, I get home from school and my brother tells me that one of his friends killed his younger brother on accident with a gun. And his friend is someone who I know personally too and in past times had asked me to be his girlfriend several times. The gun was fired to his brothers head on accident, & that is all I know as of now. Pretty scary grieving situation. I don't even want to think about it. Besides that, I've been obsessing over my new Polaroid camera. I carried it with me at a family gathering during New years eve & lots of them kinda made fun of me? They didn't think those "things" existed anymore. Whatever stirs their coffee, right? I think I'm going to straighten out my hair tonight. Besides, I don't work today, I have plenty of time tonight. Current song stuck in my head? "Jesus could be right" by ~The Damnwells~ (What a amazing band, honestly) Oh and I can't forget, this morning I saw the most beautiful sunrise. Theres Nothing better than to start the new year with a lovely pink sunrise. Ah, the sky was light pink and it was just soso pretty but it was freezing. Rachel & me had purple fingers, aha.


love always,

jeannette